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A Story to Start or End with Wheels

A Story to Start or End with Wheels

A story from a prompt:

Imagine this: a room filled with the hum of creativity, the scratching of pens against paper, and the occasional burst of laughter as ideas collide.

That’s where you’ll find me, well by zoom since I moved to the country, a proud director of our small but fiercely passionate Writing Group in my old hometown.

This week? Oh, this week is special. The challenge is simple yet brimming with possibility: craft a story that begins or ends with a bicycle.

A single object, two wheels, infinite potential. Will it be a tale of freedom, of mystery, or perhaps of heartbreak?

The group is ready to dig deep, to wrestle with their imaginations and see where the humble bicycle takes them.And you?

You’re about to get a front-row seat to the magic that unfolds. Buckle up (or should I say, hop on?). The journey is just about to begin.

The following is my story from a somewhat childhood memory, and an imagination, as a girl with freckles and red hair is a part of the story.

The Bicycle and the Bay Mare

The summer Thomas turned twelve, the world smelled of hot asphalt and cut grass, and his blue Schwinn bicycle was the finest thing he owned.

His father had rescued it from a yard sale for eight dollars, sanded off the rust, and painted it the color of a robin’s egg.

Thomas rode it everywhere: to the creek, to the library, to the little store on Miller Road where Mrs. Halvorsen sold penny candy that hadn’t cost a penny in thirty years.

That Tuesday afternoon in July, he was flying down Ridgewood Lane with a paper bag of licorice ropes bouncing in his front basket.

The wind pulled at his hair. His legs pumped in perfect rhythm. He was, he decided, the fastest boy in the county, possibly the state, possibly the world.

He was thinking exactly this when a horse came around the bend.

It was enormous, a mountain of muscle and gleaming chestnut hide, hooves hammering the pavement like a blacksmith’s anvil.

Thomas had just enough time to see the flash of a red-gold mane, both the horse’s and the rider’s, before he yanked his handlebars sideways and sailed straight into Mr. Peterson’s hedge.

The Schwinn went one way. Thomas went another. The licorice went everywhere.

“Oh my gosh, are you alive?”

A face appeared above him, upside down through the tangle of privet leaves. Freckles. Green eyes. Hair the color of a maple tree in October, spilling down in wild waves that seemed to catch every scrap of sunlight and hold it hostage.

“I think so,” Thomas managed. A leaf was in his mouth. He spit it out with what he hoped was dignity.

“I am so sorry. Dolly spooked at a plastic bag. She’s a total drama queen about plastic bags, and I couldn’t get her to …”

The girl paused, tilting her head. “You’re bleeding.”

Thomas touched his elbow. He was, indeed, bleeding. It seemed a small price to pay for continuing to be looked at by this person.

“I’m Ellen,” she said, offering a hand streaked with horse sweat and dust.

“Ellen Brennan. We just moved into the yellow house on Fox Hollow.”

“Thomas,” he said. His voice came out slightly strangled.

“Thomas Kepler.”

She helped him up, retrieved his bicycle (which had a new and interesting bend in the front fender), and gathered up as many licorice ropes as could be salvaged.

The horse, Dolly, watched all of this with the mild, unimpressed expression of a creature who had caused chaos and considered her work done.

“Come by the stable sometime,” Ellen said, swinging back into the saddle with an ease that struck Thomas as miraculous.

She clicked her tongue, and Dolly wheeled around and cantered off, and Thomas stood in the middle of Ridgewood Lane holding a bent bicycle and a bag of dirty licorice, and knew with absolute certainty that his life had changed.

He waited three days. Three days felt appropriately casual.

Three days felt like a boy who had many important things to do and only happened, in passing, to remember there was a stable on Fox Hollow.

In truth, he thought about it every waking minute.

The Brennan place was set back from the road behind a row of oaks, with a weathered red barn and a paddock ringed by white fencing that had gone gray at the posts.

Thomas leaned his Schwinn against a fence rail and walked toward the barn, and there, in the shadowed doorway, was Ellen, not in the jodhpurs and boots he’d half-expected, but in cutoff jeans and a t-shirt with a hole in the shoulder, mucking a stall with a pitchfork nearly as tall as she was.

“You came!” she said, and her whole face lit up in a way that made Thomas’s ears go hot.

“Come meet everybody.”

Everybody, it turned out, was not just Dolly.

There was Dolly, yes, the chestnut mare from the road, but also a stocky black gelding named Pepper, a spotted pony called Bandit who had, according to Ellen, “opinions,” and an ancient white horse named Mr. Biscuit who was thirty-one years old and, Ellen said solemnly, the finest gentleman she’d ever known.

Thomas offered his palm the way Ellen showed him, flat and steady, and Mr. Biscuit breathed onto it with a warm, hay-scented sigh.

Something inside Thomas’s chest turned over.

“You should ride,” Ellen said.

“I don’t know how.”

“That,” she said, “is exactly why you should learn.”

He came back the next day. And the day after.

Ellen was a patient teacher and a merciless one.

She made him groom Mr. Biscuit for a full week before she’d let him sit on the old horse’s back, and even then, only at a walk, in circles, in the corral, while she called out corrections from the fence.

“Heels down, Thomas!”

“They are down!”

“Down like you mean it. Like gravity is your personal friend.”

He fell off twice. The first time he landed in soft dirt and Ellen laughed so hard she had to sit down. The second time he landed in something considerably less soft, and Ellen laughed so hard she cried, and Thomas found that he didn’t mind at all, because when she laughed her whole face crinkled up and her freckles danced.

By August he could trot without bouncing.

By September he could post.

By the time the leaves turned, Ellen let him ride Pepper, and the two of them went out along the trails behind the Brennan property, ducking under low branches, Dolly and Pepper’s hooves whispering through the fallen leaves.

The Schwinn stayed in the yard, propped against the fence.

Years unfolded the way years do: quickly, when you look back at them; slowly, when you’re inside them.

Thomas grew tall and lean, with a rider’s hands and a rider’s seat.

Ellen grew into her freckles.

They rode through four autumns and three summers together, through a hundred sunsets over the ridge, through a season when Mr. Biscuit lay down in his stall and did not get up, and Thomas held Ellen while she cried into his shoulder for the finest gentleman she’d ever known.

There was the winter Ellen’s father lost his job and she came to school with red-rimmed eyes, and Thomas learned that sometimes the most useful thing a person could do was simply be present, and quiet, and steady, the way Mr. Biscuit had once been for both of them.

There was the spring Thomas’s mother got sick, and Ellen rode over on Dolly every single afternoon, and sat with him on the porch, and didn’t try to fix anything, because some things can’t be fixed, only witnessed.

There was the first kiss, under the oak tree by the corral, when Thomas was seventeen and Ellen was seventeen and a half and had never let him forget the half.

There was the college years, and the long-distance letters, and the summer they both came home and knew, without saying it, that they were done pretending to be uncertain.

There was a small wedding in the Brennan’s front pasture, with folding chairs borrowed from the church and Dolly, gone gray around the muzzle now, watching over the fence like a chaperone.

The blue Schwinn stayed leaned against the fence rail where Thomas had first left it.

At first, someone would move it. Ellen’s father, when he mowed; Thomas himself, when he remembered. But the years wore on, and the bicycle wore down. The tires went flat. The chain went orange with rust. Ivy found the wheels first, then the frame. A morning glory climbed the handlebars one summer and never really left.

A robin nested in the basket the year Ellen turned twenty-four, and the year after that, and the year after that.

Nobody moved it anymore. It had become part of the fence, part of the yard, part of the place. A blue-green ghost of the boy who had once been the fastest in the county, possibly the state, possibly the world.

It is a Saturday afternoon in late June, and Thomas is thirty-four years old.

He and Ellen are down by the lake behind what used to be her parents’ farm and is now, deed and mortgage and all, theirs.

A red plaid blanket is spread on the grass beneath the willow. The picnic basket, her grandmother’s, the wicker frayed at the corners, one hinge held together with baling wire, sits open and mostly empty.

There are the last crusts of a sandwich. A jar with two swallows of lemonade. A peach with two bites taken out of it, one small (hers) and one large (his).

Not far off, in the shallow slope of the pasture, two horses graze in the slow, unhurried way of horses who know they are home.

One is a bay mare with a white star. The other is a chestnut gelding whose sire, if you traced the papers back far enough, was a mare named Dolly.

Ellen is lying on her back with her head in Thomas’s lap. Her red hair, still absurd, still catching every scrap of sunlight it can find, is spread across his knee. He is twirling a piece of it around his finger, the way he has been doing for fifteen years, the way he suspects he will still be doing when they are eighty.

“Do you remember,” she says, eyes closed, “the licorice?”

“I remember the licorice.”

“It was disgusting. The licorice.”

“It was covered in gravel.”

“And you ate it anyway.”

“I did not.”

“You did. I saw you. You ate a piece with a leaf stuck to it because you were trying to seem casual.”

Thomas laughs. Somewhere up by the house, on the other side of the pasture, leaning against a fence rail nobody has repainted in twenty years, a blue Schwinn bicycle is quietly dissolving into the landscape. Weeds have grown up through its spokes. A morning glory is in bloom on its handlebars. If you didn’t know it had once been a bicycle, you might not guess.

If you did know, you might think it looked less like a ruin and more like a small, patient monument. To a boy who rode too fast around a corner. To a girl on a horse who couldn’t stop. To the exact and unrepeatable accident of two lives colliding on a summer afternoon and choosing, ever after, not to come apart.

Ellen opens her eyes and looks up at him. The freckles are still there. The green eyes are still there. Everything, somehow, is still there.

“Thomas,” she says.

“Yes.”

“I’m really glad you didn’t die in that hedge.”

He bends down and kisses her forehead. The horses graze. The lake laps at the shore. The picnic basket holds its small ruins with dignity.

“Me too,” he says. “Me too.”

A Whisper from the Past, a Chance at Redemption

If that little taste of my writing intrigued you, then you won’t want to miss my novel, Nothing But Time.It begins with a letter…a letter that arrives three weeks after Jack Harper stopped mattering.Jack gave everything to his career.

His marriage slipped through his fingers. His daughter grew up without him. Forty-one years of sunsets went unwatched, and the roses? Never smelled.

Now retired, redundant, and utterly adrift, Jack is left wondering if it was all worth it.

Then, out of nowhere, he inherits an old farmhouse from Ed, the friend who once tried to warn him.

Ed, who escaped to Vermont years ago, died alone, and left Jack with one simple instruction:

“Tend the roses. Stop and smell them. Live.”

But the farmhouse isn’t what it seems. The radio crackles with broadcasts from 1943. The roses bloom when Jack kneels in the soil. And at the edge of the orchard, Ed keeps appearing—smiling, waiting, calling Jack to finally understand what he refused to see all those years.Some second chances come with instructions. Some come with ghosts.

Are you ready to discover which one Jack will choose?

Nothing But Time

Your Voice Matters

If this story resonated with you, don’t hold back, leave a comment! 

Your thoughts, your reactions, and your support are what keep this journey alive. I know you’re out there, and your presence means everything to me.

Go ahead, share your voice, and let’s keep this connection alive.
Have a blessed day…you’re the reason I do this.

-Scott

Effective Ways to Help the Homeless Without Enabling

Effective Ways to Help the Homeless Without Enabling

This post is different.

I usually write to help you build something, fix something, or figure something out. I might write to market my latest novel but not today.

Today I want to sit with you in one of the most uncomfortable questions I’ve ever wrestled with.

What do we do with the broken people we pass every day?

The ones on the corners.

The ones in the doorways.

The ones with the cardboard signs and the hollow eyes.

The ones who, if we are honest with ourselves, may have played a role in ending up right where they are.

Do we say it out loud?

Do we admit that some of this suffering was self-inflicted? Or is that too cruel, too cold, too close to the kind of judgment we were taught never to speak?

And if it is true. . . then what?

I’ve lost count.I truly have.

Over a career that carried me across this country and into the belly of nearly every major city you can name, I’ve been approached, followed, cornered, pleaded with, cursed at, and quietly broken by the homeless.

Not once. Not twice. Countless times.

In the big cities, they are treated like litter, something the wind might carry away if we all just look somewhere else long enough. But they don’t blow away. They are still there in the morning. Still there at night. Still there the next time you visit, sometimes on the same corner, sometimes gone in a way that makes you wonder if they made it through the winter at all.

I’ve walked through underground parking garages where footsteps echo a little too loudly and shadows move a little too quickly.

I’ve navigated tunnels and back alleys where the request for “just a dollar, man” came with an edge sharp enough to make my pulse quicken.

Not everyone out there is dangerous. Not everyone is dishonest. But some are, and pretending otherwise doesn’t help anyone.

I knew a man who panhandled by day, rolling up to intersections on a scooter with a cardboard sign and a practiced expression of despair. By night? He drove home to an affluent neighborhood most working families couldn’t afford.

He was stealing, not with a weapon, but with a story. Stealing from the retiree who rolled down her window. Stealing from the single mom who felt guilty eating fast food in front of him. Stealing from the very people who could barely afford to give.

And then there are the others. The ones you can’t forget no matter how hard you try.

The ones with no teeth. The ones whose skin has been chewed raw by whatever chemical is running through their veins. The ones whose eyes don’t quite focus on you anymore, whose voices have been sandpapered down to a rasp by endless smoking, whose bodies have become hollow shells of the sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, mothers, and fathers they used to be.

The drugs took the person and left the outline behind.And it only gets worse.

The brain demands more. The dose climbs. The desperation deepens. What started as a craving becomes a cage, and the person inside is running out of room.

I’ve buried friends and family over this. Good people. People I laughed with, worked with, believed in. People who are not coming back.

And I would be lying if I said that doesn’t sit heavy on me every time I see someone on a corner who looks like they’re heading the same direction.

That’s where the trouble begins for people like us. Because we’re fixers. We see a problem and we want to solve it. We see suffering and we want to end it. We see someone drowning and every instinct in us screams do something.

But you can’t just walk up to a stranger consumed by addiction and say, “Please stop.” You can’t buy them out of it. You can’t love them out of it. You can’t lecture them out of it.So what can we do?

If they need a meal, do we buy them one?

If they need a coat, do we hand it over?

If they need a car, do we go out and get them one?

Would that fix it?

Would that be the answer we’ve been searching for?

Or is that just another version of tossing money into a bucket with no bottom?

These are the questions that haunt anyone who has ever really looked a homeless person in the eyes and seen a human being staring back. And they deserve better answers than the easy ones we’ve been giving ourselves.

Let’s talk about what really helps, and what only feels like it does.

The Right Way to Help the Homeless: Compassion Without Enabling

Most of us have been there.You pull up to a red light and see someone holding a cardboard sign. You walk past someone sleeping in a doorway. You recognize the same person outside the gas station, the grocery store, the freeway ramp. Maybe they ask for money. Maybe they look sick, exhausted, intoxicated, angry, ashamed, or completely detached from the world around them.And if you have a conscience, it bothers you.So we reach for the easiest answer: a few dollars, a sandwich, a bottle of water, a quick “God bless,” and then we move on. Sometimes that small act is sincere kindness. But many people quietly wonder: Am I actually helping, or am I just trying to feel better for a moment?That is an uncomfortable question, but it is the right one.


Homelessness Is Not One Simple Problem

It is tempting to explain homelessness with one answer.Some say it is all about poverty. Others say it is all addiction. Others blame mental illness, broken families, bad choices, domestic abuse, the economy, unaffordable housing, or failed government systems.The truth is this: homelessness is usually a collision of several problems at once.A person may have grown up in trauma, developed an addiction, lost a job, burned family bridges, suffered mental illness, gone to jail, lost custody of children, or been unable to afford rent after one medical emergency. Sometimes they are victims. Sometimes they have made destructive choices. Often, both are true.That is what makes the issue so difficult.We can acknowledge suffering without pretending every story is simple. We can have compassion without abandoning common sense. We can recognize addiction and mental illness without treating people as less than human.


The Problem With “Just Giving Money”

When we see someone panhandling, giving money feels like the most direct form of help. It is fast. It is personal. It feels generous.But cash is not always help.Sometimes it buys food. Sometimes it buys a bus ticket. Sometimes it helps someone survive another day. But sometimes it feeds the very addiction that is destroying that person’s body, mind, relationships, and future.The painful truth is that many people living on the street are struggling with substance abuse. Not all, but many. Alcohol, fentanyl, meth, heroin, and other drugs are common realities in street homelessness. Addiction changes the brain. It changes priorities. It can make survival revolve around the next drink, pill, pipe, or needle.So when we hand someone cash, we often do not know what we are funding.That does not mean every homeless person is an addict. It does not mean every request is dishonest. But it does mean that good intentions are not the same as good outcomes.If our goal is truly to help, we have to be willing to ask whether our help is useful … or merely easy.


Addiction, Excuses, and Responsibility

Many people on the street have heartbreaking stories. Abuse. Neglect. Betrayal. Trauma. Abandonment. Loss. And many of those stories are true.But trauma does not erase responsibility.A terrible childhood may explain how someone began drinking or using drugs. An abusive relationship may explain how someone lost stability. Mental illness may explain why someone cannot hold a job or maintain housing.But explanation is not the same as solution.At some point, healing requires honesty. It requires treatment. It requires structure. It requires accountability. And for many people caught in addiction, it requires more than a few dollars from strangers.

Real help does not simply soothe pain for one more night. Real help points toward recovery.


The “Rock Bottom” Question

Many people believe addicts must “hit rock bottom” before they will accept help. There is some truth in the idea that people often do not change until the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the fear of change.But there is also a danger in this thinking.For people addicted to fentanyl, alcohol, meth, or other destructive substances, rock bottom may be death. It may be brain damage, overdose, violence, organ failure, losing a limb, or disappearing completely from anyone who ever loved them.So while consequences matter, we should be careful about wishing for “rock bottom.”

A better goal is this:Let people face reality without helping them destroy themselves.That means we should not enable addiction. But it also means we should not become cold, cruel, or indifferent. The challenge is to practice compassion with boundaries.


Compassion With Boundaries

Compassion does not mean giving people whatever they ask for.

If someone asks for money, you are allowed to say no. You can say it kindly. You do not owe an explanation, and you do not need to argue.

You might say:“I’m sorry, I don’t give cash, but I can offer you food or water.”Or:“I can’t help with money, but I can point you toward a shelter or outreach service.”Or simply:“I hope you get help. Take care of yourself.”Boundaries are not cruelty. Boundaries are often the difference between helping and enabling.


Better Ways to Help in the Moment

If you regularly encounter homeless people or panhandlers and want to help without handing out cash, there are practical alternatives.Consider keeping small care items in your car or bag:

  • Bottled water
  • Protein bars or easy-to-eat snacks
  • Socks
  • Hand warmers in cold weather
  • Hygiene wipes
  • Toothbrush and toothpaste
  • Travel-size deodorant
  • Feminine hygiene products
  • A printed list of local shelters, food banks, detox centers, and crisis lines

These things may not solve homelessness, but they can meet a real need without fueling addiction.Food is not always accepted. Water may be refused. Hygiene kits may be ignored. That can be frustrating. But remember: your job is not to control the outcome. Your job is to offer help wisely.


The Best Help Usually Comes Through People Equipped to Help

Most of us are not trained social workers, addiction counselors, mental health professionals, or crisis responders. We are ordinary people trying to respond to a very complex problem.That is why one of the best things we can do is support organizations that are actually equipped for this work.Look for groups that provide:

  • Addiction treatment
  • Detox services
  • Mental health care
  • Transitional housing
  • Job training
  • Case management
  • Domestic violence support
  • Veterans services
  • Food and shelter
  • Long-term recovery programs

Donating to effective local organizations may feel less personal than handing cash to someone on a corner, but it is often far more helpful.A dollar given to a person may disappear in minutes. A dollar given to the right organization can become part of a system that offers food, counseling, treatment, housing, and accountability.


Housing Matters… But Housing Alone Is Not Always Enough

There is strong evidence that stable housing can dramatically improve outcomes for people experiencing homelessness. It is hard to get sober, take medication, apply for jobs, attend appointments, or rebuild a life while sleeping under a bridge.But housing alone does not fix everything.Someone deep in addiction or untreated mental illness may need intensive support. They may need detox. They may need medication. They may need supervision, counseling, community, and consequences. They may need people who will not abandon them … but also will not lie to them.The most effective help often combines housing, treatment, accountability, and human connection.


Do Not Dehumanize the Person in Front of You

It is easy to become hardened when you see the same people panhandling every day. It is easy to notice the missing teeth, the raspy voice, the open sores, the erratic behavior, the signs of addiction, and think, “They did this to themselves.”Sometimes, yes, choices played a role.But every person on the street was once a child. Someone once held them. Someone once hoped for them. Many were wounded long before they became visibly broken.That does not mean we excuse everything. It means we refuse to let frustration turn into contempt.A person can be responsible for their choices and still be worthy of dignity.

That balance matters.


What Not to Do

If you want to help wisely, avoid these common mistakes:

  • Do not give cash just to relieve your guilt.
  • Do not assume every homeless person is lazy.
  • Do not assume every homeless person is an addict.
  • Do not lecture someone on the street.
  • Do not put yourself in unsafe situations.
  • Do not make promises you cannot keep.
  • Do not confuse pity with real help.
  • Do not enable behavior that is clearly destructive.

Good intentions can still cause harm when they are not paired with wisdom.


What You Can Do Instead

Here is a better approach:

  1. Treat the person with basic respect.
    Make eye contact if it feels safe. Speak like they are human.
  2. Set clear boundaries.
    You can be kind and still say no to cash.
  3. Offer practical items.
    Food, water, socks, hygiene supplies, or resource cards are often better than money.
  4. Support local organizations.
    Give to shelters, recovery programs, outreach teams, and ministries with proven work.
  5. Know your local resources.
    Save phone numbers for crisis lines, shelters, detox centers, and outreach services.
  6. Call for help when needed.
    If someone appears unconscious, overdosing, freezing, injured, or in danger, call emergency services.
  7. Advocate for real solutions.
    Support policies and programs that combine housing, treatment, mental health care, and accountability.

The Hard Truth About Helping

Helping the homeless is not as simple as being generous. Sometimes generosity is easy. Wisdom is harder.It may feel kind to give someone exactly what they ask for. But if what they ask for helps keep them trapped, then we have to rethink our approach.The goal is not to punish people for being homeless. The goal is not to ignore suffering. The goal is not to look away.The goal is to help in a way that points toward life.That means compassion, but not enabling. Boundaries, but not cruelty. Honesty, but not contempt. Assistance, but not blind guilt.


A Better Kind of Compassion

The next time you see someone panhandling, pause before you reach for cash.Ask yourself:Am I helping this person move toward stability, treatment, safety, or recovery? Or am I simply trying to feel less uncomfortable?

That question changes everything.Because the homeless person on the corner does not need our guilt. They do not need our judgment either.They need something much harder to give:truthful compassion.The kind that sees their humanity, recognizes their pain, refuses to enable their destruction, and supports real paths toward recovery.That may not be the easiest answer.But it is probably the more loving one.

A family member begging for a fix asked me, If you’re a Christian how can you refuse to give me money?

Well…What do you think? Guilted by a family member through my faith….?

Throughout Scripture, God consistently identifies Himself as a defender of the poor, the widow, the orphan, and the stranger.

Proverbs 19:17 says, “Whoever is generous to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will repay him for his deed.

Psalm 82:3 commands, “Give justice to the weak and the fatherless; maintain the right of the afflicted and the destitute.

Deuteronomy 15:11 reminds us, “There will never cease to be poor in the land. Therefore I command you, ‘You shall open wide your hand to your brother, to the needy and to the poor, in your land.'”The message is clear. God sees the poor. God cares about the poor. And He calls His people to do the same.

How do we juxtapose that with what I have laid out above?

The Bible speaks plainly about the destructive nature of substance abuse. It does not use the modern word addiction, but it describes the reality vividly.

Proverbs 23:29-32 paints a haunting picture: “Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has strife? Who has complaining? Who has wounds without cause? Who has redness of eyes? Those who tarry long over wine. . . . In the end it bites like a serpent and stings like an adder.”

1 Corinthians 6:12 offers this wisdom: “‘All things are lawful for me,’ but not all things are helpful. ‘All things are lawful for me,’ but I will not be dominated by anything.“Addiction is domination. It is bondage. Scripture takes it seriously, not with shame, but with sober honesty. And it points to freedom, not endless enabling, as the true goal.

This one I have used a few times…

Ephesians 4:15 calls believers to speak “the truth in love.”

Proverbs 27:6 says, “Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy.”

Sometimes the most loving thing is not what feels good in the moment. Sometimes love says no.

Sometimes love sets boundaries.

Sometimes love lets natural consequences do the work that comfort cannot.

But love never turns cold.

Love never becomes contempt.

Love never gives up on the dignity of another human being.

The foundation of everything the Bible says on this subject is this. Every person, no matter how broken, no matter how addicted, no matter how ragged, no matter how frustrating, bears the image of God.

Genesis 1:27 says, “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him.”

Proverbs 14:31 takes it further: “Whoever oppresses a poor man insults his Maker, but he who is generous to the needy honors him.”That is why we cannot look away. That is why we cannot dehumanize the person on the corner. That is why “they did this to themselves” is never the final word on a human soul.Even a person destroyed by addiction is still image-bearing. Still valuable. Still loved by God. Still worth praying for. Still worth hoping for.

And this is what makes it hard to simply toss money at the problem or the person.

So what does the Bible say about helping the homeless?

It says to care.

It says to give.

It says to see them as human.

It says to remember that our treatment of the least of these is our treatment of Christ Himself.

But it also says to be wise.

To not enable destruction.

To distinguish between genuine need and manipulation.

To love enough to tell the truth.

To work through community rather than guilt.

To point people toward real freedom rather than temporary relief.

And above all, it says that no one is beyond redemption.

That is the biblical balance.

Compassion without enabling.

Generosity without foolishness.

Truth without cruelty.

Hope without naivety.

It is a harder path than simply handing over a dollar and driving away. But it is the path Scripture calls us to walk.

And if we walk it well, we may find that we are not just helping the homeless.We are being changed ourselves.

Have a Blessed Day!

“From 9/11 to Flock Cameras: The Dystopian Novel I Started 15 Years Ago”

“From 9/11 to Flock Cameras: The Dystopian Novel I Started 15 Years Ago”

September 9, 2011, started like any other day. While stuck at a traffic light, I was on the phone with our New York office. Something happened; they put me on hold, and as I drove to the Dallas office, I listened to the world change. We can argue about the rumors that still surround Building 7, but suffice it to say, the world changed.

My normal way of dealing with grief is not to drone on about it with friends or family. My way is to write about it. If you follow me at all, you have no doubt read my blog post about writing letters or emails to people who are, let’s say, less than congenial. I use expletives and what have you to get the anger out of me and into the digital ethos, and of course, as much as I want to, I never send it. Burning bridges and being known as a hothead will get you nowhere.

Fast-forward six weeks after 9/11 and at least 3,000 deaths by “some people who did some things.” Bush and his administration enacted the Patriot Act, which is still alive and well today. The things those people did allowed our government to strip away some of our rights, trading them for safety. “Do you feel safe?”

Fast-forward to the Flock cameras, data centers, Alexa devices, smartphones, and, of course, drones. Do you feel safe?

Those Flock cameras, I learned, have microphones.

So, while spending these summer months of 100-plus-degree days clearing out old computer hardware, I found that file from 2011. I had started a book about a fictional city where a horrible event occurred, and much like the Patriot Act, what we see today closely resembles what I put into my book. Being a fan of Orwell, I wrote a dystopian near-future novel that is all but ready for one last edit.

Stay tuned for more updates and for when the book drops.

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Back in My Young Man’s Days: Have We Really Learned Anything?

Back in My Young Man’s Days: Have We Really Learned Anything?

There’s an old Max Bygraves song called “Back in My Young Man’s Days” that most of you have probably never heard of. Unless, of course, you happen to be an aficionado of Turner Classic Movies or music from that era. I am both, proudly, and perhaps a little wistfully. As I go about doing the things that men my age tend to do, my mind wanders. It wanders to the news of the day, to memories of the past, and sometimes, more often than I’d like, to the sting of death. And then I put on a song like “Back in My Young Man’s Days,” and I can’t help but ask myself a hard question:Have we learned nothing?

The Same Old Story, Just Louder Now

If the leaders, the megalomaniacs, the dullards, the people who don’t seem to mind putting your life on the line, had to face the same risks as the soldiers who die by the tens of thousands every time someone rattles a saber, one has to wonder how differently the world might look. Then I open up X or scroll through some other social media platform, and what do I see? You’ve seen it too. People behaving badly. Or as one influencer bluntly puts it, “chimping out.”

It makes me wonder: is there something in the water? Something in the food? Some invisible force driving us back to the basic animal instincts of lions and tigers and bears …Go ahead. Say it. Oh my.

Seriously though, if you’ve ever watched one of those nature documentaries where the narrator calmly describes the lions stalking their prey on the savannah, you know exactly what I’m talking about.

The Camera in Every Pocket

Then it dawns on me. Back in my young man’s days, nobody had a video camera in their pocket. Back in my young man’s days, we barely had a Kodak, and heaven forbid, a Polaroid was a luxury. So I have to ask: What if we had? Would we have seen the same carnage back then that we see today? Would Andy Griffith and “Leave It to Beaver” have been the anomaly, or would they have been the standard?

I suspect the truth is uncomfortable.

The Mob Was Always There

Back in my young man’s days, I saw the mob mentality firsthand. I saw boys trying to prove they were men by picking on the timid, the frail, and the girls. Nobody was immune to the red-headed bully who was feeling his oats, or, as I now suspect, feeling his hormones running amok as curly hairs sprouted in places they had never been before.The cruelty was there. The mob was there. We just didn’t have the receipts.

25,000 Mothers a Week

But some things do feel bigger now. Heavier. More absurd. Do you ever think about simpler times? Do you ever wonder how leaders like Putin and Zelensky can be okay with 25,000 young men being killed each week?

Twenty-five thousand.That means 25,000 young mothers each week who have to live with the reality that their baby is never coming home. That’s not a statistic. That’s an ocean of grief we can’t seem to stop refilling.

Food for Thought

Were your parents like the Beav’s?

Mine weren’t. But they were both there, and looking back, that mattered more than I understood at the time. Maybe we didn’t live in a simpler time. Maybe we just lived in a time with fewer cameras, fewer platforms, and fewer megaphones for our worst instincts. But the questions remain the same ones humanity has always wrestled with: Why do we hurt each other? Why do we send our sons to die? And why, with all our progress, do we keep circling back to the same sorrow?Food for thought.


What do you think? Do you find yourself longing for simpler times, or just quieter ones? Share your thoughts in the comments.

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Investing in Our Youth: A Call for Change

Investing in Our Youth: A Call for Change

I have been giving a lot of thought to the recent criminal trials in this country. Consider the Charlie Kirk trial, in which the defendant sits laughing in court with his lawyers, or the case of the child who killed another child at a track meet. Then I see the news, where we are trying to fix the world’s problems, and I note that we have brought in twenty million people from third-world countries who were unvetted. Something needs to be done, but what?


Walk through any high-crime neighborhood and you’ll find the same story repeated. A boy grows up with no father, a stressed or absent mother, a school that’s given up on him, and a street corner that hasn’t. The gang doesn’t recruit him with force. It recruits him with belonging, protection, status, and money — the very things every human being needs and that we failed to give him. Researchers point to the same root causes again and again: poverty, social isolation, discrimination, limited educational opportunity, and low parental monitoring.

These aren’t mysteries. They are the predictable results of communities we chose not to invest in.Here is the hard truth about how we’ve responded: we spend a fortune on the back end — after the damage is done. Locking up a young person can cost well over a hundred thousand dollars a year, often producing worse outcomes than community programs at a fraction of the price. We are paying premium rates for failure. As one blunt observer put it, there is no purely legal solution to gang violence — the only way to end it is to disincentivize the gang money and offer something better.

So let’s offer something better. And let’s pay for it by looking honestly at where our dollars already go.


The argument writes itself. We send billions overseas to prop up other nations’ security and development. Meanwhile, our own veterans sleep in doorways, our own addicts wait six months for a treatment bed, and our own kids are left with idle summers that gangs are happy to fill. As Americans debating this very question.

We keep exporting stability to the world while our own communities burn. It’s time to invest in our people first.


Every year, America sends tens of billions of dollars overseas — to shore up foreign governments, fund distant development projects, and manage crises on other continents. Meanwhile, a fourteen-year-old three miles from my house is being recruited into a gang because it’s the only place offering him belonging, protection, and a paycheck. We have our priorities exactly backward.This isn’t a call to abandon the world. It’s a call to finally do right by our own — the wayward kids drifting toward crime, and the adults our system already lost decades ago. The money exists. It’s just pointed in the wrong direction.

The Failure We’re Paying Premium Prices For

Here’s the uncomfortable math. We spend roughly $80 billion a year incarcerating people, and a single juvenile detention bed can run $100,000 to $200,000 annually — often producing worse outcomes than community programs costing a fraction as much. We are paying luxury prices for failure.And it is failure. Research consistently shows the roots of gang membership are predictable: poverty, social isolation, discrimination, drug use, limited educational opportunities, and low parental monitoring.

And this figure does not include those with LEARING CENTERS scamming those who see a problem and toss tax dollars at it with zero audits or accountability.

We know the warning signs. We watch kids fall through the cracks in slow motion. Then we act shocked and reach for handcuffs.Even ordinary Americans see the connection. As one online commenter bluntly put it, we could fund real solutions “if we didn’t send all of our money to Ukraine and Israel and Palestine” — money that could instead go toward “better funding of education and funding of mental health programs” and “tackling the root cause(s) of why people join gangs in the first place.” 

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Why Gangs Win — and How We Beat Them

Gangs don’t recruit through force. They recruit by offering what we’ve stopped providing: family, status, protection, and money. The evidence is clear that there is no purely legal solution to gang violence — you can’t arrest your way out of it. As even blunt online debates concede, “the only way to end gang violence is to disincentivize gang money.”

That means offering something better. It works when we try. Structured activities and sports “keep children out of trouble and also give them something to work for,” though they require “extra resources and teachers willing to coach/mentor teams.”

It means encouraging kids to create positive goals — helping them build “realistic and attainable personal, educational, and career goals outside of gang involvement.”

And it starts at home: experts across law enforcement, schools, and community groups agree that educating and equipping parents with real skills “is necessary and critical if the growth of gangs is to be curbed.” 

The framework already exists. Federal research distinguishes between prevention programs that “target youth at risk of gang involvement” and intervention programs that “provide sanctions and services” to pull kids already involved back out. We know what to build. We just refuse to fund it at scale.

The Group Everyone Forgets: The Lost Adults

Here’s what most policy debates skip entirely. The at-risk kid of today is almost always the child of the lost adult of yesterday — the one who never got the mentor, the trade, or the second chance twenty years ago, and who now cycles through prison, addiction, and unemployment. You cannot save the child while ignoring the broken adult raising him. Fix both, or fix neither.So a domestic-first agenda must do two things at once:

  • For the lost adults: fair-chance hiring, trade certification in fields that can’t be outsourced — welding, HVAC, trucking, electrical — and addiction and mental-health treatment available now, not after a six-month waitlist.
  • For the kids: full after-school and summer programming in every high-poverty zip code, family support, and credible-messenger mentors.

And here is the beautiful symmetry: the redeemed adult becomes the mentor for the next kid. The man who did his time, got clean, and rebuilt his life is the single most credible voice a drifting teenager will ever hear. He isn’t a lecture — he’s living proof. Foreign aid builds roads in other countries. This builds people in ours, and each rebuilt person rebuilds the next.

Answering the Critics — and Winning

Defenders of foreign spending will say aid is a small slice of the budget that buys strategic stability. Fine. Then find the money in the other 99 percent — the point stands that prevention at home is starved relative to its proven return. This was never about isolationism. It’s about a simple principle: put our own house in order first, and lead the world by example rather than by check.Public safety and human redemption aren’t opposing goals. Policymakers should prioritize public safety by curbing gang activity and restoring order to communities — for the sake of families “still living in fear” — precisely by investing in the opportunity that makes gangs obsolete.

The Bottom Line

We have the resources. We have the research. We have millions of Americans — kids and adults alike — waiting for someone to bet on them instead of writing them off. Bring the money home. Rebuild the kids. Redeem the lost. And watch the redeemed turn around and save the next generation.That’s not charity. That’s the smartest investment this country could possibly make.

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Main Street Didn’t Die of Natural Causes

Main Street Didn’t Die of Natural Causes

When I wanted to use a mom-and-pop shop, I was chastised because they were more expensive than a big box store. The truth is that big box stores, and now companies like Amazon, are putting these folks out of business. When small towns turn into empty buildings and “antique shops,” you have yourself to blame.

The Real Cost of “Saving” Money at Big Box Stores

We’ve all been tempted by the lower price tags at big box retailers. But here’s something worth considering: what are you actually getting for your money?When you walk into a locally owned hardware store, nursery, bike shop, or specialty retailer, you’re not just buying a product. You’re buying decades of accumulated knowledge. That owner has likely used, tested, repaired, and lived with the products on their shelves. They chose each item deliberately because they believe in it.

Expertise You Can’t Put a Price Tag On

Local merchants stake their reputation on every recommendation. They live in your community. They’ll see you at the grocery store. They have every incentive to steer you right.They can troubleshoot problems because they understand how their products actually work in real-world conditions.They’ll talk you out of buying something if it’s not the right fit, something a commission-driven or undertrained big box employee will never do.

The Big Box Reality

Large retailers cycle through employees at staggering turnover rates. Many staff members received a few hours of computer-based training before being placed in departments they know nothing about. They’re reading the same box you’re reading. You’re essentially paying less to help yourself.

The Hidden Costs of Going Cheap

That “savings” evaporates quickly when you

  • buy the wrong product because no one guided you properly,
  • have to make return trips because of bad advice,
  • purchase unnecessary extras you didn’t actually need, or
  • end up replacing a cheap item sooner than expected.

It’s an Investment in Your Community

Every dollar spent locally circulates back through your neighborhood, funding schools, roads, and local services. When a mom-and-pop shop closes, that expertise leaves with it and doesn’t come back.

The few extra dollars you spend at a local shop aren’t a markup. They’re tuition. You’re paying for someone’s lifetime of knowledge, honest guidance, and genuine accountability. That’s a bargain at any price.

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250,000 Girls…You’ve got to be joking?!

250,000 Girls…You’ve got to be joking?!

I am not going to lie, these reports from the UK disturbed me to my core. How did this happen? What are we going to do about it now? Yes, I have given it some thought instead of sleeping. You might wish to share this…Our officials in this country need to respond.

Protecting Young Minds: Screen Time, Mental Health, and the Case for Comprehensive Education

Introduction

The digital age has brought unprecedented access to information, connection, and, unfortunately, content that poses serious risks to developing minds. From violent pornography to influencer misinformation, children today face threats that previous generations never encountered at such scale. These are not abstract concerns. They are urgent public health issues demanding thoughtful, evidence-based responses.This post examines the interconnected problems of harmful screen time, online exploitation, and mental health deterioration among young people, while proposing education-centered solutions that respect constitutional freedoms and empower the next generation.

The Scope of the Problem: Sexual Violence and Online Exploitation

Recent revelations from the United Kingdom have exposed a horrific reality: more than 250,000 vulnerable girls were groomed and gang-raped over the course of a decade or longer, while authorities, including police and social workers, failed to intervene despite having knowledge of the abuse . A whistleblower finally brought these atrocities to light, and the accounts are deeply disturbing.The United States is not immune to sexual violence. According to recent statistics, 127,527 rape cases were reported in 2024, at a rate of 37.5 per 100,000 inhabitants . The FBI reported an estimated 139,815 rapes in 2019, a figure 2.7 percent lower than 2018 but 10.8 percent higher than the 2015 estimate . One analysis indicates that reported rape cases have risen over the last decade at an annual rate of approximately 2.9 percent .Research suggests that pornography, especially violent content, plays a role in shaping attitudes and behaviors that contribute to sexual violence. However, it is likely one factor among many, including childhood experiences, peer influences, mental health, and substance use .

Why Age Matters: The Developing Brain

The prefrontal cortex, responsible for judgment, impulse control, and understanding consequences, is the last brain region to fully develop . This biological reality carries significant implications:

  • Children and teens are more susceptible to normalizing what they see.
  • They lack the cognitive tools to contextualize violent or degrading sexual acts.
  • Neural pathways formed during exposure can have lasting effects on attitudes and behaviors.

Effects on Children Ages Five and Up

The research on early childhood exposure to pornography is particularly alarming .

Immediate Emotional Responses: Children report feelings of disgust, shock, embarrassment, anger, fear, and sadness after viewing pornography. Exposure at young ages often results in anxiety, and these children can suffer all the symptoms of anxiety and depression .

Behavioral Consequences: Children may become obsessed with acting out adult sexual acts they have witnessed, which can be highly disruptive . One comparative analysis found that youth who committed sexual offenses had earlier exposure (between ages five and eight) to pornographic material compared to other delinquent youth. Notably, youth who offended against other children were exposed to this material most frequently .

Long-Term Developmental Harm: Exposure to pornography at a young age may lead to poor mental health, sexism, objectification, sexual violence, and other negative outcomes. When children view pornography portraying abusive and misogynistic acts, they may come to view such behavior as normal and acceptable .

General Mental Health Effects of Screen Time

Research demonstrates that excessive screen time carries significant mental health implications. A U.S. study found that teens who spent more than three hours per day on social media faced almost double the risk for mental health challenges, particularly symptoms of depression and anxiety . Regular social media use has been linked to feelings of anxiety, depression, and lower self-esteem in vulnerable youth .For children and adolescents specifically, over-digitalization can trigger a chain of negative physiological effects, including dysregulation of neural circuitry related to serotonin and dopamine, key neurotransmitters involved in mood regulation .

The Influencer Effect and Misinformation

Constant exposure to idealized versions of influencers can take a powerful toll on self-esteem and create unrealistic expectations that no one can achieve . What proves particularly troubling is how we process influencer content: even highly informed, alert individuals who know factually that they are not seeing every aspect of an influencer’s life do not process that information emotionally in the same way . When influencers present opinions as facts, especially incorrect ones, this creates a compounded problem :

  • Emotional processing overrides critical thinking: Viewers tend to absorb information emotionally rather than analytically.
  • Trust dynamics: Followers often develop parasocial relationships with influencers, making them more susceptible to accepting claims without verification.
  • Self-esteem damage: When incorrect advice about health, success, or relationships does not work, individuals may blame themselves rather than questioning the source.

Congressional Approaches That Respect Rights

Congress faces the challenge of balancing efforts to combat harmful misinformation while respecting First Amendment protections . Several constitutionally sound approaches have been proposed or could be expanded.

Promoting Media Literacy Education: The Educating Against Misinformation and Disinformation Act (H.R. 6971) provides a strong model. This legislation directs the Department of Education to study and promote media literacy, including methods to identify misinformation, evaluate context for information from different sources, detect manipulation of images or information on digital platforms, and understand how influencers target and manipulate audiences . The bill also authorizes competitive grants to nonprofits and institutions of higher education to develop educational materials and public awareness campaigns .

Funding Research and Developing National Strategy: Congress could mandate a national strategy for information and media literacy along with required reports containing recommendations for legislative or administrative action . This approach keeps the focus on empowering citizens rather than restricting speech.

Transparency Requirements: Legislation like the Honest Ads Act focuses on transparency in political advertising online, a model that could extend to requiring clearer disclosure when influencers are paid or incentivized .The education-first approach appears to be the most rights-respecting path forward, empowering people to think critically rather than deciding what they can or cannot see .

The Case for Tailored Mental Health Education in Schools

The evidence is clear: schools are uniquely positioned to serve as primary settings for mental health promotion for students in grades K through 12 . With the near-universal exposure of young people to harmful online content, social media pressures, and real-world threats, a comprehensive and tailored approach to mental health education is no longer optional; it is a public health imperative .

Why Tailored Education Matters

A one-size-fits-all approach fails children. Schools in different environments face distinct challenges: urban schools may need to address gang violence or drug abuse, while rural schools might focus on social isolation or limited access to mental health services . Similarly, age and developmental stage must determine what content is appropriate and how it is delivered.Young people themselves have indicated they believe educational institutions should provide information and raise awareness of mental health issues . This is their expressed need, and we should listen.Curricula must include medically accurate and developmentally appropriate information that addresses different health experiences and behaviors for youth of all ages and abilities . A tiered approach might include:

  • Ages 5 to 10: Foundational concepts about emotions, personal boundaries, trusted adults, and recognizing uncomfortable situations
  • Ages 11 to 14: Expanded education on online safety, manipulation tactics, healthy versus unhealthy relationships, and early warning signs of exploitation
  • Ages 15 to 18 and beyond: Comprehensive discussions including real-world case studies, digital literacy, consent, and understanding how predators operate

Should Education Include Difficult Real-World Examples?

The question of whether to include difficult real-world examples, such as the organized grooming gangs documented in the United Kingdom, deserves careful consideration.

The argument for inclusion (delivered in age-appropriate ways): These are not abstract threats. The UK grooming gang scandals, spanning cities like Rotherham, Rochdale, Telford, and others, involved the systematic exploitation of hundreds of thousands of vulnerable children over decades . Similar patterns exist globally. Children deserve to understand that such threats are real, not hypothetical.

Knowledge is protection. Many victims of grooming gangs have described not recognizing the signs of manipulation because no one had taught them what exploitation looks like . Education that includes real patterns of predatory behavior, such as being “befriended,” given gifts, isolated from family, or introduced to substances, can help children identify danger before it escalates.Such education also combats normalization. As discussed, exposure to violent pornography leads some children to view abusive behavior as normal . Counter-education using real cases demonstrates that such behavior is criminal, harmful, and absolutely unacceptable, regardless of how it may be portrayed online.

Responsible implementation requires:

  • Age-appropriate framing: Younger children do not need graphic details; they need to understand boundaries, trusted adults, and that some people try to trick children. Older students can handle more specific case studies.
  • Trained educators: Teachers should receive professional development workshops led by mental health professionals to recognize early signs of issues and deliver sensitive content appropriately .
  • Support systems in place: Any education on difficult topics must be paired with access to counseling and reporting mechanisms. School-based mental health support needs to be fully funded .
  • Empowerment, not fear: The goal is to build resilience and recognition skills, not to traumatize. Framing should emphasize that adults failed to protect these children and that systems are being improved to prevent future harm .

Integrating Mental Health with Safety Education

Effective programs combine classroom-level and student-level interventions to sustain educational, health, and mental health improvements . This means incorporating anti-bullying programs and socioemotional learning as core components, teaching children to communicate about mental health with trusted adults, addressing the impact of social media and digital platforms on mental health, and creating mental health champions within schools.The connection between online exploitation, pornography exposure, mental health deterioration, and real-world sexual violence must be taught as an interconnected reality, not as isolated topics .

Conclusion

Protecting children in the digital age requires acknowledging uncomfortable truths about the threats they face and responding with comprehensive, evidence-based education. By investing in media literacy, tailored mental health curricula, and trauma-informed teaching practices, we can empower young people to recognize danger, build resilience, and develop the critical thinking skills necessary to navigate an increasingly complex world.Our children are our greatest treasure. It is time our policies and educational systems reflected that truth.

I realize that this is not my normal material on this site. I usually showcase my writing via some short story or perhaps offer writing or publishing advice. This news brought tears, anger, and disgust. The prime minister resigned, and so should that worthless mayor, he knew. Anyone that looked the other way should face consequences. Comment below if you care to discuss this.-Best

When Silence Became My Only Frequency

When Silence Became My Only Frequency

When Silence Became My Only Frequency

Thirty-six months ago, I switched off the radios. Just like that, a hobby that had been woven into the very fabric of my identity went into hiding. The reason? One of my closest friends passed away. He wasn’t the first. Heartbreakingly, he wasn’t even the last to leave me. There have been so many others since. But this man—he was different. He was a father figure. He kept me grounded, kept me out of trouble. His absence left a void that static could never fill.Amateur Radio—Ham Radio—was my world from the time I was 13 years old. Through those airwaves, I didn’t just hear voices from distant lands; I connected with souls. Hours of late-night conversations turned strangers into friends, radio calls into coffee shop meetups, and eventually… into eulogies I never wanted to write.I became the youngest. The last man standing.


The Truth About #Grief No One Tells You

Here’s the thing about grief that catches you off guard: you never “get over it.” You don’t move past the loss—you learn to move with it.Yes, life goes on. The sun rises. Responsibilities call. But life? Life is never, ever the same. And that’s okay. It took me years to accept that this isn’t a flaw in healing—it’s the very nature of love. We grieve deeply because we loved deeply. The ache is proof that what we had was real. If you’re reading this and you’re in that dark place right now, please hear me: Your grief is not weakness. It’s not something to “fix.” It’s something to honor, to sit with, and eventually—when you’re ready, not when anyone else says you should be—to carry forward.


Finding My Way Back

I moved. Downsized from suburbia to the country, surrounded by open land and quiet skies. Every single one of those friends I lost would have loved it here. Plenty of room for antennas. Peaceful nights perfect for DXing.I finally built a shop—or as we hams call it, a shack.One by one, I began unboxing the old radios.Some I had purchased myself over the years. But many—so many—were bequeathed to me through wills I didn’t even know existed until long after my friends were resting. Each radio carries a memory. Each trinket, each piece of equipment, holds a story. One of them still carries the distinct scent of cigarette smoke. Its owner passed at 54. Smoking almost certainly led to his untimely demise. Every time I catch that faint smell, I hear his laugh, his voice breaking through the static late at night.


The First Transmission in Nine Years

Today, nine years after losing my dear friend, I finally turned one of the radios on.The crackle of static filled the room. It wasn’t the same. How could it be?But it was something. A small spark. A whisper of what once was—and maybe, just maybe, what could be again.


A Step Forward: Field Day 2026

As we approach another ARRL Field Day on June 27th, I’ve made a decision: I’m going to attend as a spectator.Ham conventions will never be the same without my friends. I suspect this event won’t be what I remember either. The voices will be different. The faces unfamiliar.But perhaps that’s the point.


The Battle Within

There’s a large part of me that wants to leave this chapter of my life buried—resting peacefully alongside those friends who made it so meaningful.But there’s also this quiet voice inside. A small but persistent whisper saying: It’s time.Time to embrace what is rather than mourn what was.Time to maybe—just maybe—become that person for someone else. The mentor. The father figure. The steady voice on the other end of the frequency who keeps a young ham out of trouble and shows them the magic of connection.


If You’re Grieving Too

To anyone reading this who has stepped away from something they loved because the pain of loss made it unbearable:

  • Give yourself permission to grieve on your own timeline. There is no “right” way or “right” amount of time.
  • Honor the memories, but don’t let them become a prison. Our loved ones wouldn’t want their memory to steal our joy forever.
  • Consider small steps. You don’t have to dive back in. Spectating, like I’m doing, is still showing up.
  • Talk about them. Say their names. Share their stories. They live on through us.
  • Seek support when you need it. Whether it’s friends, a counselor, or a community who understands—grief was never meant to be carried alone.
  • Know that honoring their legacy might mean continuing what you shared. Perhaps the greatest tribute is to keep going—and to be for someone else what they were for you.

The static crackles. The frequency awaits.I don’t know what comes next. But for the first time in a long time, I’m willing to find out.

73, my friends. 📻


If you’re curious about Field Day or want to find a local event to attend, visit: http://www.arrl.org/field-day

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Why Health Insurance Calls Are So Frustrating: A Personal Account

Why Health Insurance Calls Are So Frustrating: A Personal Account

Have you noticed that when you call for help with a claim, you’re told that “call volumes are heavier than normal and wait times are longer at this time”?

Last week, I received a bill for a procedure that should have been fully covered. The bill was for $517.15.

I called the doctor’s office and was transferred to billing, where I was told, “You need to call the carrier and dispute it.”The old joke about needing patience to call HP for support pales in comparison to dealing with people working from home.The problem started at the doctor’s office. They need more training—or they need to care about their work.However, I didn’t know that at the time, so I called the insurance carrier. Even Job would have lost patience with these people. After hours on hold, multiple transfers, and being ignored by one agent (whose child screamed in the background), my call was left on hold and never resumed.Automated claim systems don’t think; they check boxes. A person could have reviewed the issue and prompted the doctor to submit the EOB to the correct group from the start.After hours of listening to terrible hold music, someone finally answered the phone. I could barely hear him, but the bottom line was that I needed to call another party.

After more time on hold, I reached the next party, who told me the doctor’s office needed to fix their billing system and resubmit the claim properly.Back to the doctor’s office—press 1 for this, 2 for that, 3 for something else, but no option for billing. I was told to leave a message and “have a blessed day.”

To their credit, they called back before closing and told me to call the carrier again.We were stuck in a loop, and I spent most of the day listening to commercials and tinny music.I insisted on speaking to the office manager, who took my information and commented, “People—they’re stupid.”I replied, “No argument from me.”This billing error from the doctor’s office took hours of my time to address, and I’m still not sure it will be resolved correctly.Working from home is not working—these people are clearly not working.The representative at the carrier was belligerent and curt. I’m sure she just hung up when her child screamed, “Mom!”

When you finally reach a person, they look for any excuse to transfer you.After hours of commercials and hold music, I wondered why I would ever do business with this group again.AI does not possess critical thinking skills.In my experience, people working from home lack the work ethic of those in an office, especially when a supervisor is nearby.Corrective action is needed:

A: Every denied claim should be investigated by a person. As a health insurance company, is it wise to make people in need of medical care navigate a maze of IVR and AI systems that don’t understand them?

B: Calls that are recorded, as announced, should be reviewed. You can clearly hear kids screaming, dogs barking, and TVs in the background. Let’s return to hiring people who want to work and cut the dead weight.

C: Wait times should never exceed a few minutes. Waiting for over two hours is unacceptable.Thank you for your attention to this matter.

The Decline of Personal Service: From Gas Stations to Grocery Stores

The Decline of Personal Service: From Gas Stations to Grocery Stores

Considering that roughly 216 million people shop at Walmart, one might ponder the sheer number of stores. The number hovers near 4,500.I don’t need to tell you that Walmart is responsible for the death of many mom-and-pop shops in small-town America. Now Amazon is killing what is left.

Do you remember the friendly face behind the counter, the one that might ask you about your family or even know your name?

Not that long ago, I’d pull up to the filling station and, before I could even step out of my car, an attendant would be at my window with a friendly smile. They’d fill my tank for me, and if I asked, they’d wash my windows until they sparkled, check the air in my tires, and even pop the hood to make sure my oil was topped off. It felt like a small ritual of care, a moment when someone else looked after both me and my car.

These days, I do it all at the gas station. I’m pumping my own gas, washing my own windows, and if I decide to step into the store, there’s a good chance I might not even understand the person behind the counter.

After finishing my transaction, I think what irritates me the most is that cold, robotic “THANK YOU” that comes from some computer chip with absolutely zero agency.

It’s not a person expressing gratitude; it’s just a programmed response, a hollow echo of politeness designed to mimic human interaction. I know it’s just a chip running instructions, processing inputs, and spitting out outputs, but it feels so empty.

It’s as though the machine is trying to replace the human touch, and instead it just reminds me how far we’ve drifted from real, meaningful interactions.

I can still remember a time when going to the grocery store felt like a completely unique experience.

Back then, I’d push my cart through the aisles, and when I was done, someone would take it from me and handle everything.

They’d ring up my order, carefully bag or sack the groceries, and then, as if it were the most natural thing in the world, someone would carry them out to my car. They’d even ask where I wanted them placed (trunk, backseat, wherever) and do it with a smile.

It wasn’t just about the service; it was the warmth of the interactions.

There were genuine pleases and thank-yous, and as I drove away, I felt appreciated, as though my business actually mattered.

It wasn’t just a transaction; it was a moment of connection, a small but meaningful exchange that made the whole experience feel human.

Now I can’t help but miss those days, when customer service wasn’t just a buzzword but something you could feel in every interaction.

Now they want $25 an hour to let you take your groceries and put them in the cart, or, like at Aldi, you get to box them or bag them after the sale.

Sorry, but where is the service in that?

Today, things couldn’t be more different. Now there’s an app for everything, even grocery shopping.

I’m expected to pull out my phone, open the app, and start scanning my groceries as I pick them out. I place them in my cart myself, and when I’m ready to leave, I just show the machine a barcode on my phone. And voilà, transaction complete.

It feels a lot like shopping at Aldi or one of those other stores where you’re left to bag, box, or otherwise pack your own groceries for the ride home.

As I glance around, I see several employees standing, not ringing people up or bagging groceries but instead directing traffic or helping someone with an item that refuses to scan properly.

Is it quicker? Sure, sometimes it is. But can it be slower? Oh, absolutely.

The entire process feels so detached. What used to be a personal, interactive experience now feels as though I’m just another cog in a self-service system, one in which the human touch has been replaced by machines and apps.

IKEA and many other stores are doing away with people to check you out altogether.

They just stand there chatting with one another, waiting for some beep from a machine so they can swoop in and push the correct button.

Are prices lower now that you are working for them?

Can we get on their company benefit plan, since we are essentially performing job functions that their employees should be doing?

Here’s the bottom line: H-E-B and Tom Thumb are the only places around here that still have full-service stores. So I’ve decided to run a brief experiment. I’m going to visit each one and rate them on three things: price, availability of products, and the overall customer experience. Because let’s face it, prices are already way too high, and shrinkflation is everywhere.

If I’m going to get screwed over, I’d at least like a little courtesy to go along with it.

Give me a kiss afterward, you know?

IKEA was the first one I checked on after this post, hence the rewrite.

Here’s the truth of it: I’m tired.

Tired of walking out of stores feeling frazzled, angry, and worn down by machines that don’t care and workers who were never given the chance to.

I don’t want a barcode.

I don’t want a beep.

I don’t want a chip chirping “THANK YOU” at me like I’m a vending machine that just dispensed a candy bar.

I want a person. A real, breathing human being who looks me in the eye, cracks a small smile, and says,

“Thank you, have a great day,” and actually means it.

Is that too much to ask?

Somewhere along the way, we traded connection for convenience, and I’m not convinced we got the better end of the deal.

So here’s my challenge to you.

The next time you shop, pay attention. Notice who greets you, who thanks you, who treats you like a customer instead of a task to be processed. Then vote with your wallet, because that’s the only language these companies still understand.

Take your business to the places that still remember your name, still bag your groceries, still bother to care.

And do me one favor: drop a comment below and tell me where the good ones are, the last full-service stores in your town that haven’t forgotten what service actually means. Let’s find them together, before they disappear for good.