Month: August 2026

Is there a possible upside to living near a Data Center?

Is there a possible upside to living near a Data Center?

It turns out that I have more connections than I ever thought I did. I was complaining about the possible downsides of having a data center near me, and the responses started coming in.

Noise Pollution

Data centers require extensive cooling systems, which often produce a constant, low-frequency hum from cooling fans and HVAC equipment. This noise can disturb sleep, cause migraines, and, in extreme cases, even lead to permanent hearing loss.

Residents near data centers have described the noise as a “dull, inescapable hum” that rattles windows and disrupts daily life.

Increased Utility Costs

Data centers consume massive amounts of electricity and water. In some cases, utility companies pass the increased costs on to local residents, leading to higher energy and water bills.

For example, in areas like Maricopa County, Arizona, data centers have contributed to water scarcity, which has affected local communities.

Environmental Concerns

Data centers are significant contributors to greenhouse gas emissions because of their high energy consumption. This can worsen air quality in nearby areas.

Diesel generators used as backup power sources during outages can release harmful fumes, further degrading air quality.

Health Impacts

Residents near data centers have reported health issues such as migraines, vertigo, nausea, and panic attacks, potentially linked to noise and environmental disruptions.

Sleep disturbances caused by noise pollution can also lead to long-term health problems.

Water Strain

Data centers often require large amounts of water for cooling, which can strain local water supplies. This is particularly problematic in areas already facing water scarcity.

Privacy Concerns

The proximity of data center windows to residential properties can raise privacy issues. Residents may feel uncomfortable with the possibility of being observed from the facility.

Construction and Traffic Disruptions

The construction of data centers can lead to prolonged noise, dust, and increased traffic in the area, disrupting daily life for nearby residents.

Property Value Impacts

While some argue that data centers can increase property values through economic development, others note that the associated noise, environmental issues, and utility costs can deter potential buyers, potentially lowering property values in the immediate vicinity.

Loss of Cultural or Natural Areas

Data center construction can lead to the loss of green spaces, cultural landmarks, and other community resources, which can negatively affect the local environment and community identity.

Quality of Life Issues

Residents near data centers have reported a general decline in their quality of life because of the combination of noise, environmental disruptions, and health concerns.

So What Do We Get Out of This?

What is in it for us? So far, I don’t see the benefit.

Well, one of my connections, who knows someone recruiting employees for the construction, told me that one data center owner signed a ninety-nine-year contract that pays the water and electric bills for all residents within a five-mile radius of the plant. He told me, unequivocally, that it was fact.

Is it? Will they do that everywhere? Will other data centers step up?

Where Is the Pushback?

The residents in the area will most certainly be negatively affected by the plant’s presence. Listen, folks: they are putting these things all over the place. Why isn’t our government pushing back on them for us?

Thoughts? Have you heard of this?

Why Should I Join a Group or Club Like CLW, When Writing Is Such a Solitary Process?

Why Should I Join a Group or Club Like CLW, When Writing Is Such a Solitary Process?

Writing feels solitary.

You sit at your desk, stare at a blank page, and wrestle with ideas that only you can hear. Yet, some of the most celebrated authors swear by the power of a writers’ community. Below, we’ll explore why joining a group like Carrollton Leage of Writers https://www.carrolltonleagueofwriters.com/(CLW) can transform that isolated habit into a dynamic, growth‑fueling experience.

In my travels I promote CLW, the Carrollton League of Writers (and since we meet over Zoom, as well as in person, distance is no barrier). The pushback I often hear is that writing is a solitary act. My response: writing may start as a solitary act, but the journey to becoming a better writer is inherently social.I offer this reminder to them: CLW provides the feedback loop, accountability, creative spark, and emotional scaffolding that solo work often lacks. By tapping into the collective intelligence and goodwill of a writers’ group, you gain the following:

  • Sharper prose, thanks to honest critique
  • Faster momentum, through accountability
  • Richer ideas, by way of synergy
  • A supportive community that celebrates every step

So the next time you hear that writing is a solitary process, remember: the best stories are often forged in collaboration, even if the final product bears a single name. Join CLW, and let the power of many minds make your voice louder, clearer, and more compelling.


1. Instant, Honest Feedback

  • Speedy critique: Instead of waiting weeks for a beta reader, you get fresh eyes on a paragraph within days.
  • Balanced perspective: Group members point out both strengths and blind spots, helping you tighten prose, clarify plot holes, and sharpen dialogue.
  • Safe space: CLW’s “constructive criticism only” policy ensures feedback is honest but never hurtful.

2. Accountability That Actually Works

  • Regular deadlines: Knowing you’ll share a chapter at the next meeting keeps procrastination at bay.
  • Progress tracking: Seeing peers hit word‑count milestones nudges you to stick to your own targets.
  • Public commitment: When you announce a goal in a group, you’re more likely to follow through—psychology calls it the social contract effect.

3. Creative Synergy & Idea Cross‑Pollination

  • Brainstorming boost: A single “what if?” from another writer can spin an entire subplot into existence.
  • Genre mash‑ups: Exposure to diverse styles (poetry, speculative fiction, memoir) sparks fresh approaches you might never try alone.
  • Collective problem‑solving: Stuck on a character’s motivation? Someone’s life experience may hold the key.

4. Skill‑Sharing Beyond the Page

  • Editing tricks: Learn when to use a semicolon vs. a dash from a peer who’s an editor.
  • Marketing basics: Members often share insights on query letters, social media outreach, and self‑publishing platforms.
  • Technical tools: Discover new software (Scrivener, Dabble, or even AI‑assisted outlines) through demos and peer recommendations.

5. Emotional Support & Motivation

  • Writer’s block relief: Hearing that others face the same dip in inspiration normalizes the struggle.
  • Celebrating wins: From finishing a first draft to landing a literary agent, the group becomes your cheer squad.
  • Loneliness antidote: Regular meet‑ups—whether virtual or in‑person—replace the echo chamber of a solitary desk with genuine camaraderie.

6. Networking Opportunities

  • Guest speakers: CLW often invites published authors, agents, and editors for Q&A sessions.
  • Collaboration projects: Anthologies, joint newsletters, and co‑authoring experiments arise naturally in a tight‑knit community.
  • Referral pipeline: A member’s agent may become your agent—word‑of‑mouth connections are priceless.

7. Improved Discipline & Craft Mastery

  • Writing prompts: Weekly prompts push you out of comfort zones, expanding your stylistic range.
  • Workshops: Structured exercises (e.g., “show, don’t tell” drills) give you a tangible way to practice and internalize techniques.
  • Progress reviews: Periodic “where am I now?” sessions highlight growth that’s easy to miss when you’re only looking at drafts.

TLDR

Writing may start as a solitary act, but the journey to becoming a better writer is inherently social. CLW provides the feedback loop, accountability, creative spark, and emotional scaffolding that solo work often lacks. By tapping into the collective intelligence and goodwill of a writers’ group, you gain:

  • Sharper prose (thanks to honest critique)
  • Faster momentum (through accountability)
  • Richer ideas (via synergy)
  • A supportive community (that celebrates every step)

So, the next time you hear “writing is a solitary process,” remember: the best stories are often forged in collaboration, even if the final product bears a single name. Join CLW, and let the power of many minds make your voice louder, clearer, and more compelling

Speaking of writing…Here is my latest release:Gods And Insects... Ted Smith’s title says Special Advisor, Office of Administration.

For nineteen years his actual job has been making problems go away, and the largest one is a fleet of tanker trucks that emptied radioactive drilling waste along nine states of interstate shoulder, one rainstorm at a time.
The cancers never clustered around the wells, where anyone would have thought to look. They gathered in a thin ribbon along the highways, in truck stops and hay fields and school districts downhill of the road, spread across a map nobody owned.

Then an oncologist asks Ted about occupational exposure, and Ted lies.

Three pages after a senator’s airport earmark, buried in a spending bill nobody will read, sits a rider that seals twenty years of monitoring data and makes every one of those deaths legally unprovable. It reaches the Senate floor in nine days. The only reporter who can stop it is the one the White House is busy making famous, and she has not yet understood that the medal they are hanging on her is a leash. Nobody has to lie once the bill passes. That is the point of the bill. Gods and Insects is on KDP

Frozen at Forty-Five

Frozen at Forty-Five

A drunk stranger, a thermos of coffee, and 115 miles an hour: what one second cost me.

My speedometer stopped at forty-five. Frozen there, like a clock that gave up mid-tick. The rest of the world had slowed too: glass tumbling past my face one shard at a time, the dashboard rising to meet me, the steering wheel folding into my chest. People say your life flashes before your eyes. Mine didn’t. Time simply stretched, and in that stretched second I understood I was about to die. I was wrong, but only barely, and only because I like coffee.

You’ve been in that lane. Maybe not drunk, maybe three drinks in and certain you were fine, or looking down at a text for what felt like half a second. Half a second is the whole story. That’s all the time it took to take the rest of my life apart.

That was thirty sevenyears ago. It made the front page of a small East Texas newspaper, and it earned me my fifteen minutes in the most austere way a man can get them.

Driving home tonight, I passed more than one driver weaving across lanes. Usually it’s texting or checking a missed call, and of course they’re convinced they can do it more safely than anyone else. Sometimes the weaving is simpler: they’re drunk or high. I know exactly where that road leads, because in 1992 it led straight into me.

A head-on collision at freeway speeds with an intoxicated eighty-year-old forced me to reinvent myself. I survived treatment at a small country hospital that doubled as an emergency vet clinic (joking . . . I think), and I was clearly destined for other things.

The broken bones and lacerations healed, but the scars remain just beneath the surface. Pain is a constant reminder of that day.

I still have my legs because I like coffee. Minutes before impact, I’d stopped for gas and filled a stainless steel thermos, setting it upright on the passenger seat. Cresting a hill, I found a Cadillac barreling toward me in my lane. My options were to swerve or brake. A red truck blocked the next lane, so in the split second it took to say “Oh, shit,” it was over. That fast. I’d locked the anti-lock brakes and bent the brake pedal. He never touched his.

The combined collision speed was 115 miles an hour. How they calculated that, I have no idea; my speedometer was frozen at forty-five.

That split second is etched into my brain, a permanent reminder of what happens when idiots drink and drive. Time fascinates me now, because I believe it isn’t linear but relative. During impact, the world became a high-speed film: glass tumbling frame by frame, left to right; the dash rising to meet me; the steering wheel crushing my face and chest. What I remember isn’t a bang. It was a long tearing, metal giving up all at once, and then the smell: gasoline, hot coolant, and my own blood. The thermos launched to the floor and wedged between the firewall and my seat frame. Full of liquid, its hydraulic resistance stopped the dash from severing my legs and likely kept the steering column from piercing my heart.

The other driver was pinned under his dash. He left in the first ambulance with a single cut on his forehead and was released that day. He wasn’t even wearing a seatbelt. I never learned what became of him. Since we shared the same insurer, I was “lucky” to be compensated. The claims adjuster was nasty on the phone. They wouldn’t replace my six-month-old truck, and they didn’t care that I was upside down on the loan. I understand adjusters work for the company, but I was surely not in “good hands.” If you’re lucky, insurance is money pissed away on something you’ll never need. Either way, they do whatever they can to avoid paying. Worth knowing: you get two years to file every claim. What surfaced in me after those two years was a diagnosis football players collect from the punishment of the game. I’m certain the insurers know that timeline as well as the doctors do. Two years, then it’s “piss off.” Some injuries take years to declare themselves, growing new bone that either steals your range of motion or hands you pain you never escape, until death.

As I said, my trip to the hospital began only after they’d removed the man responsible.

My vision faded as the pain in my chest intensified. Certain I was going to die, I made my peace with God, and strangely, I didn’t mind. There was a peace in it, as if the answer were finally at hand. God had other plans. Waiting for the end, I managed to unbuckle my seatbelt, but the pain remained.

With what vision I had left, I watched them pull the other driver onto a stretcher. A man came to my window. Talking hurt, and breath was scarce, so my answers were short. My face had met the steering wheel (or the wheel had met my face), so speaking clearly wasn’t an option anyway. Blood was leaving my body through every orifice, visible and not.

The engine and tires of my truck had come to rest beneath my seat. I heard the Jaws of Life popping the metal as they cut the door away, then sliced through what remained of my seatbelt. My vision was nearly gone, but I could still hear the equipment and the voices. People talk about the white light; mine faded from white sparkles to a blank white screen. “It’s a miracle he’s alive,” one responder said. They fitted a collar and pulled me out.

I wanted to say something, anything, to prove I was still a person and not a body they were working on. Nothing came out. My hands wouldn’t close. Somewhere behind the ringing a woman was crying, and I couldn’t tell whether it was for me or for him.

Once they laid me down, my sight returned. I saw the emergency vehicles and the wrecker driver gathering my belongings, scattered across the freeway. Steam rose from under my seat, where the engine now sat. The truck bed was warped and twisted by the force of the crash.

In the ambulance, the medic warned me the 18-gauge needle for the sugar water would hurt. Compared to everything else, it was a mosquito bite.

At the hospital, they were already working on the man who’d hit me, separated from me only by a curtain. He was old, drunk, and on medication. His wife had recently bought him this big old Cadillac after he’d totaled his last car, so he’d be protected if he crashed again. He bragged that she’d been right, since here he was.

Listening to him praise his classic Cadillac, what was left of my blood boiled. Bad enough they’d taken him first; now I had to share a room with him.

Then it was my turn to be treated like meat.

As they cut my clothes off, there was no shortage of spectators: doctors, nurses, a physician assistant (young, attractive, long curly brown hair), and a burly old cop who’d clearly never missed a meal.

The accident report was read aloud to everyone, including the note that my seatbelt was unbuckled. I tried to explain that I’d taken it off, but the cop was more interested in fault and writing a ticket than in me. He looked down as if to say, Sure, we’ve heard that one before. Arrogant son of a bitch. If he couldn’t read the evidence, he was a moron.

Then they cut off my shirt and revealed a wide purple stripe across my chest and belly, the mark of the belt. The cop put his ticket book away. I don’t mean to sound churlish; I count many police as friends. But thinking about him still makes me angry.

The doctor arrived in a black silk sports jacket with a yellow logo, on call from some sporting event and clearly unhappy about it. His bedside manner left much to be desired. There were two hospitals in town, one for the poor and one for people with means. I had insurance and means, and they’d brought me to the one in need of everything.

After examining my naked body in front of the crowd, the “doctor” flipped me over and stuffed a finger up my rear as the last insult. Broken bones, crushed chest, shattered face and legs, and without so much as an X-ray, he finished his exam like I was a slab of meat, scribbled orders, and left. A sonogram showed my heart was bruised. Then came X-ray, near the morgue. I could smell the dead, or maybe that was me.

Water-stained ceiling tiles told the story of the building’s finances. The X-ray machine wouldn’t stay put; its old, loose joints let the head slide every time she stepped back to trigger it. We shot several images before she finished. God knows how much extra radiation that museum piece gave me.

Back in the ER, the man’s wife arrived. “They said I was in the wrong lane,” he told her.

He got three stitches and was soon released. Before leaving, his wife came to me. I was covered head to toe in my own blood, my beard caked with it. She rubbed my forehead and apologized: “I knew better than to get him another car.” Then she added, “I’m not supposed to tell you this, but we have good insurance.”

Even in my state, I was too polite to tell her what she could do with her good insurance. First I had to survive the day, the night, and another day before I could think about any of that.

After hours in the ER, I was moved to the ICU. If you’ve never been hospitalized (and I hadn’t), it’s not an experience I’d recommend.

Because of the bruised heart and they didn’t know what drugs I was on, they decided I couldn’t have pain medication. A dentist checked the teeth that had gone through my face and stitched me up from the inside out, no anesthetic. Next came the doctor who set my broken nose, a man who reminded me of the professor from Back to the Future. He pressed with his thumb, couldn’t get it straight, then jammed enormous forceps up my nose and forced it into place. The pain was unbelievable, ending only with the final crunch of bone.

The monitor echoed the throbbing in my body. As long as it beeped, I knew I was alive.

The PA kept pressing me to admit what I was taking. “C’mon, we know you’re on something. We need to know.” “Really, I don’t do that. Never have.” She tried again and again; my answer never changed. I may be the only person on this planet who’s never touched the stuff, but I haven’t. “If we know what your on we can give you pain meds.” True story, they were bribing me with pain relief.

“We don’t know what you’re on, so we can’t give you pain medicine,” she said. What was I supposed to do, lie so they’d treat my pain? I am not making this shit up, it happened. Whoever this Andy person was, they were protecting him.

After the worst week of my life, the toxicology report came back: low potassium. “What are you doing to make your potassium low?” asked the doctor with the bad bedside manner. “Um . . . I don’t salt my food. I had the flue a few weeks ago…???” I never got so much as an aspirin.

The days and nights blurred. I couldn’t sleep. My nose, packed with cotton, throbbed for days. With broken ribs, even breathing hurt.

Every few hours someone jabbed me repeatedly for blood; whoever they were, they were bad at it. Still on saline, urinating was the only activity I could manage, and lifting the sheet was nearly impossible. More than once I needed help. Humbling doesn’t cover it.

By the third day, glass from the crash was still embedded in my hands, arm, and face. My beard remained a solid chunk of dried blood, and not one person offered to clean me up.They had extracted some of the glass but much like a splinter in your foot, the glass in my body was a constant reminder that I was still alive.

For entertainment, I discovered I could control my heartbeat through biofeedback, slowing it to an eerie crawl or speeding it up. I was wired to telemetry so someone, somewhere, could watch my rhythm; a camera on the ceiling watched too. One night I wanted a nurse and couldn’t get one, so I pulled off the leads. The monitor went silent, and nobody came for nearly fifteen minutes. If this was the ICU, I shuddered to imagine a regular room.

The next day I asked to be transferred to Houston. I knew Dr. DeBakey and many other quality doctors personally; he’d once told me to call, if I ever needed him. If something was wrong with my heart, I wanted him and his team, not these people.

Instead, they moved me to a private room in the hospital’s “best” wing, built with someone’s donation. There, with my family’s help, I got myself into the shower and stayed until every trace of dried blood was gone from my hair and skin. Then I dug my own tweezers out of my luggage and pulled the glass from my body myself.

Before releasing me, the doctor with the crappy attitude was noticeably kinder. Maybe he’d finally accepted I wasn’t on anything, or realized the wreck wasn’t my fault, or maybe he’d just gotten lucky the night before. Either way, I was glad to leave. Holding a pillow to my chest, an old friend drove me home, where I lost months of work, and eventually had to leave the job I loved, no longer able to do it.

I never did get Dr. DeBakey and his team. I’d spent years caring for the physicians of the Texas Medical Center, only to end up in a small East Texas hospital that was a joke by any standard.

Months of lost pay later, I got a call from MADD, Mothers Against Drunk Driving. I could barely afford it, but I sent them money anyway.

Thirty-seven years to date, I’m still teased about my driving. I’m defensive; I leave plenty of room, and I preach to anyone who’ll listen, watch the traffic at least fifteen cars ahead, and leave enough space to see it. People say I drive like a slow grandpa. “Slow” means the speed limit, give or take a mile or two for terrain.

Driving a big truck full of airbags is only part of my strategy. When I see people fiddling with phones behind the wheel, part of me wants to scream. And the cops? They’ve got radios, phones, laptops, and a dozen other distractions, right through school zones. Folks, they’re no different from you. Watch them drift as they mess with their gadgets. I’ve seen it, and I cringe.

Keep your distance: from big trucks, from cheerleader types who think a selfie in a school zone is smart. They do it, and it’s all over Facebook. Just the other day, a young woman picked up her child and tore out of the school at 40-plus in a 20 zone, texting as she passed me. “Where’s a cop when you need one?” I said, and right on cue, a motorcycle officer pulled onto her bumper. She drove a long way, still texting, before she noticed him. That ticket had to be pricey.

I wish I could say this was fiction. It isn’t. It happened. Some memories have surely faded, but most remain, including the pain. For thirty-seven years I’ve lived in unrelenting pain. I take nothing for it. I manage with exercise as best I can, because no medication would leave me mentally sharp. With opioids and such they work, then you need more, and more, and more, and soon enough you have all kinds of other problems like you can’t poop! No thank you. You would be shocked to learn how many people die on the toilet because they have a heart attack trying to poop.

I don’t know what became of the man who hit me. I finally read the police report in 2016 and learned the only charge against him was driving left of center. He and the cop who worked the scene went to the same church.

The cop came in, prayed with Andy, then crossed to my side of the curtain and watched them cut my clothes off. He had his ticket book open when someone told him my seatbelt hadn’t been on. I’d taken it off to see whether that would ease the pain. It didn’t; my sternum was cracked in two.  When he saw the long purple bruise the belt had left, his face turned to disgust. He’d wanted to ticket me, to make me the villain instead of his church buddy Andy. On his way out, he told the attending to test my blood for anything and everything known to man. Some East Texas cops and sheriffs really do suck.

I do know that when you share an insurer, you lose. He’s surely gone by now, but there are plenty to take his place. There were no smartphones then; now everyone has one. Weed is legal in some states, and I fear those drivers will be impaired too. Even where it’s illegal, I’d bet one in three drivers is under some influence.

He got three stitches. I got thirty-seven years of pain, PTSD, and counting.

That’s the part I need you to sit with. The man who hit me felt almost nothing. He went home that afternoon, praised his Cadillac, and let his wife apologize on his behalf. The cost didn’t land on him. It landed on a stranger cresting a hill with a thermos on the seat beside him, and it has stayed with that stranger every day since.

So if you’ve ever done the arithmetic in a parking lot, counting drinks against miles and telling yourself you’re fine, understand what you’re actually wagering. Not your license. Not your record. Someone else’s life, spent on your behalf, without anyone asking them.

My speedometer stopped at forty-five. I’ve spent every year since trying to keep yours from doing the same. Hand someone else your keys. Take the defensive driving course. It’s the cheapest insurance you’ll ever buy

I’ve written a memoir. You can get your copy here. This story is in it in full, along with many others. the cover art is different with more stories than this version but the link will get you there.

Best,

© All Rights Reserved 2026

Gods and Insects, yes it feels like that.

Gods and Insects, yes it feels like that.

The Day a Leaky Truck Inspired a Novel: The Story Behind Gods and Insects

In the late 1900s, I was spending a significant amount of time on the road, driving nearly 1,000 miles a week. Back then, I lived in Houston, a city notorious for its unpredictable weather and sprawling roadways. One of the most well-known highways in Houston is Loop 610, a giant ring encircling the city. It was (and still is) a requirement that hazardous material trucks use the loop instead of cutting through the downtown area. This rule made sense, given the risks involved in transporting dangerous substances through such a densely populated area. But one particular day on the loop changed the trajectory of my life in the most unexpected way.


A Rainstorm, a Leaky Truck, and a Spark of Curiosity

Houston weather is nothing if not unpredictable. You can be driving under sunny skies one minute and find yourself in the middle of a torrential downpour the next, and that’s exactly what happened on this day. As I made my way around Loop 610, following a chemical transport truck, the skies opened up. The rain poured down, and visibility became challenging. Yet, something about that truck caught my attention.There was an unusual amount of water draining from the back of the vehicle…far more than seemed normal, even during a rainstorm this heavy. My curiosity got the better of me. Why was there so much water spilling from this truck? Was it just rain runoff, or was there something else going on?Instead of continuing on my usual route through town via Highway 59, I decided to follow the truck, keeping a safe distance. I watched as the rain let up and the sun came out again. But here’s the strange part: the water draining from the truck didn’t stop. It kept flowing as if the storm had never ended.


A Suspicious Pattern and a Moment of Realization

The truck didn’t return to Highway 59 after completing its loop around the city. Instead, it kept circling. I followed it for a while, trying to make sense of what I was seeing. Was something leaking? Was the truck dispersing something intentionally? After completing more than one full loop around the city, I realized I’d wasted enough time, and likely exposed myself to who-knows-what. I decided to let it go and head home.But the experience stuck with me. Long after I stopped following that truck, I couldn’t shake the questions from my mind. What could have been leaking from that vehicle? Was it an accident, or something more sinister? The idea kept nagging at me, and before I knew it, a story began to form in my imagination. That day, the seed for my novel Gods and Insects was planted.


From a Leaky Truck to a Novel 30 Years Later

It took over three decades for the story to fully come to life. Gods and Insects, like my previous novel The Corrected City, sat in the proverbial file cabinet for years, stored away on an old hard drive while life moved on. But writing has always been my craft, my passion. With over 100,000,000 words written (yes, that’s with an M!), my skills have sharpened over time, and I finally felt ready to breathe new life into this story.The result? A novel born from a real-life moment of curiosity, suspense, and a little bit of danger. Gods and Insects is now available, and for the next 90 days, it’s free to read on Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP).


Why You Should Give Gods and Insects a Read

Sometimes, inspiration strikes in the most unexpected ways. For me, it was a mysterious chemical truck, a rainstorm, and a moment of curiosity that I couldn’t ignore. The resulting novel dives into themes of mystery, danger, and the unknown…born from a real-life experience that could have ended very differently.If you’re a fan of suspenseful, thought-provoking stories, I think you’ll find Gods and Insects well worth your time. Plus, it’s free on KDP right now, so there’s no excuse not to dive in and experience the tale for yourself.Enjoy the read, and remember, inspiration can strike when you least expect it. Sometimes, all it takes is a leaky truck on a rainy day to spark a story worth telling.

Your Turn: Join the Conversation and Dive Into Gods and Insects

Now that you’ve heard the story behind the story, I’d love to hear from you!

💬 Drop a Comment Below

Have you ever had a moment of curiosity that stuck with you for years? Maybe an unusual encounter, a strange sight, or a “what if” question that wouldn’t leave your mind? Share your story in the comments. I read every single one, and who knows, your experience might just inspire my next novel! I’d also love to hear your thoughts on this piece. Did the mystery of that leaky chemical truck grab your attention? What do you think was really going on?

📖 Grab Your Free Copy of Gods and Insects

Ready to see where that rainy day in Houston led? For the next 90 days, Gods and Insects is completely FREE on Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP). That’s right: zero cost, all suspense. Whether you’re a longtime sci-fi fan, a lover of mystery and intrigue, or someone who enjoys a story with real-world roots, this novel has something for you.👉 [Click here to download your free copy today!] (Insert your KDP link)Don’t wait. This free offer won’t last forever. Once the 90 days are up, the opportunity is gone.

⭐ Loved It? Leave a Review!

Here’s the thing about being an indie author: reviews are our lifeblood. They help other readers discover the book, they boost visibility on Amazon, and honestly? They mean the world to writers like me who’ve poured decades into their craft.So if you read Gods and Insects and enjoy it (or even if you have constructive thoughts to share), please take just two minutes to leave an honest review on Amazon. It doesn’t have to be long. Even a sentence or two makes a huge difference. Your words could be the reason another reader picks up this book and gets pulled into the mystery.


To recap:

  1. 💬 Comment below with your thoughts or your own “curious moment” story.
  2. 📖 Download Gods and Insects for FREE on KDP (limited time!).
  3. ⭐ Leave an honest review after you read it.

Thank you for being part of this journey. Every reader, every comment, and every review helps keep the stories coming. Now go grab that book, and happy reading! 🚚💧📚

911 and the Corrected City

911 and the Corrected City

The Day Everything Changed: How 9/11’s Shadow Still Follows Us 25 Years Later

I still remember exactly where I was.Sitting at a traffic light, engine idling, phone pressed to my ear. I was mid-conversation with our New York office when something on the other end shifted. A pause. An apology. Then that familiar click as I was placed on hold.But instead of the usual generic elevator music, the line piped in a live feed from a New York radio station. And in that surreal moment, trapped between a red light and a phone call that would never resume the same way, I heard the news that would carve itself into the memory of a generation.

The towers were falling.

Six Weeks That Rewrote America

Just six weeks later, the Patriot Act arrived like an uninvited houseguest who never left. Signed, sealed, and delivered, it quietly stripped away layers of privacy we didn’t even realize we had. Suddenly, virtual strip searches at airports became the new normal. We shuffled through security lines in our socks, arms raised, being scanned by machines that saw everything.We told ourselves it was temporary. Necessary. A brief inconvenience for the greater good.Twenty-five years later, almost to the day, the Patriot Act is still very much alive.

The Surveillance Web We Live In Now

Today, the conversation has evolved, but the trajectory hasn’t changed. Now we’re hearing about Flock Cameras, automated license plate readers stitching together a dragnet that tracks your movements even when you’re just taking a peaceful walk through the park. Many of these units come equipped with microphones. For our safety, of course.Seriously, do they expect anyone to believe that anymore?And Flock is just the beginning. Consider the surveillance apparatus we’ve voluntarily installed in our own homes:

  • Alexa devices perched on kitchen counters, always listening for their wake word (and who knows what else)
  • Smart TVs watching us watch them
  • Ring doorbells creating neighborhood-wide camera networks
  • Security cameras we bought, installed, and connected to the cloud with our own two hands

But all of that? It pales in comparison to the Swiss Army knife of surveillance technology sitting in your pocket right now.You can’t sit in a coffee shop, dine at a fancy restaurant, or have a private conversation anywhere without your smartphone perched on the table, listening, recording, cataloging. Not just your words. Everyone’s words. Every conversation in earshot becomes potential data.We didn’t drift into this world. We sprinted toward it, credit cards in hand.

The Novel That Waited 25 Years

In the aftermath of 9/11 and the passage of the Patriot Act, I did what writers do when the world feels off its axis. I wrote about it. I penned a novel called The Corrected City, a story shaped by the anxieties of a nation that had just traded pieces of itself for the illusion of safety.Then life happened. The manuscript got shelved. Files moved from one computer to the next, then to storage drives, then to forgotten corners of hard drives destined for the recycling bin.Recently, while sorting through old computer parts before finally letting them go, I stumbled across it. There it was, that story, patiently waiting through a quarter-century of exactly the kind of world it had warned about.I dusted it off. Polished it up. And today, I’m thrilled to announce that The Corrected City is now available on Amazon.Even better, I’ve enrolled it in KDP Select, which means if you’re a Kindle Unlimited subscriber, you can read it absolutely free.

A Small Favor

If you pick it up, read it, and find it worthwhile, please leave a review. In an age where algorithms decide what stories rise to the surface, reader reviews are the single most powerful boost an independent author can get.Grab your copy. Settle in. And maybe, just maybe, turn your phone face-down on the table while you read.Thanks for coming along on this journey with me.

Get your copy here.

Nobody remembers the first camera.


Twenty years after the Year of Fires, the city is safe. Assault is down eighty percent. Nobody has been murdered in eleven years. The screens say good morning by name, the clinics answer in minutes, and the past is kept tidy by people like Mara Venn, who has spent eleven years at the Ministry of Public Memory correcting the record so that no citizen ever has to live inside a contradiction.
Then a corrupted file comes across her desk, and she is very good at her job, and she restores it.


What surfaces is four minutes of footage the official history cannot survive, a wind reading nobody bothered to falsify, twenty-seven names missing from a memorial roll, and a photographer in a government coat who tipped his head to the right exactly the way her sister does.


She can prove it. She cannot prove it to anybody who would still be alive afterward, starting with her sister, who reads the names of the dead on air to four hundred thousand people and believes every word.


A near-future thriller about surveillance that arrives as kindness, history that is corrected rather than censored, and the quiet, decades-long work of putting the truth somewhere it can be found.

How to Write Characters Who Do Stupid Things Without Making Your Story Stupid

How to Write Characters Who Do Stupid Things Without Making Your Story Stupid

Don’t Make Them Dumb. Make Them Desperate.

There’s a moment every writer dreads. You’re reading a review of your own work, or a beta reader’s notes, or a comment from a critique partner, and you see the sentence that stops your heart:

“This only happens because the character is an idiot.”

That’s the ghost that haunts fiction. The dreaded Idiot Plot: a story that only functions because its characters refuse to behave like thinking humans. Doors get opened. Warnings get ignored. Secrets get kept for no reason. And the reader closes the book feeling insulted.So writers overcorrect. We start scrubbing our characters clean of bad decisions. We make them cautious, competent, and reasonable. And then something worse happens.They become boring.Because here’s the truth nobody wants to say out loud: real people do stupid things all the time. They sabotage relationships. They chase desire over reason. They lie when the truth would be easier. They text the ex at 2 a.m. They touch the obviously cursed object. They open the basement door.The trick isn’t avoiding stupidity.The trick is making the stupidity psychologically believable.

Readers Don’t Hate Bad Decisions. They Hate Artificial Ones.

This is the distinction that changes everything.A reader will forgive almost any reckless action, whether infidelity, betrayal, self-destruction, or murder, if they understand the emotional logic driving it. What they won’t forgive is a decision that exists only because the plot needed it to exist.The difference isn’t in the action. It’s in the engine behind the action.An “idiot plot” character doesn’t check the security footage because the writer needs them not to. A believable character doesn’t check the security footage because they’re terrified of what they’ll see, or because they’ve spent thirty years learning not to look at things that hurt, or because their pride won’t let them admit they were wrong about the person on the other end of that camera.Same action. Completely different story.

Humans Are Not Rational Machines

Here’s where fiction has to catch up with psychology.We like to imagine ourselves as reasoning creatures who occasionally slip into emotion. The research says the opposite. We are emotional creatures who occasionally slip into reason. Fear, memory, shame, lust, anger, grief, and hope are running the show. Logic is mostly the press secretary trying to explain the disaster after it’s already happened.Or to put it more bluntly:

Humanity is not a rational species. We are emotional animals with car keys, Wi-Fi, and access to explosives.

If your characters make decisions the way a spreadsheet would, they’ll feel like spreadsheets. If they make decisions the way people actually do, through the fog of feeling, memory, and want, they’ll feel alive.

Give Every Bad Decision an Emotional Cause

This is the working rule. Every stupid choice in your fiction should be traceable to something underneath it. Not an excuse. A cause.Consider the difference:

  • A character ignores a clear danger because they need approval more than they need safety.
  • A detective withholds evidence because his pride was wounded by the person he’d have to admit was right.
  • A lover returns to a toxic relationship because desire feels like destiny, and destiny is hard to argue with at midnight.
  • A scientist activates the machine because being right matters more to him than being safe, and it always has.
  • A soldier disobeys a direct order because the past is louder than the command structure.

None of these characters are stupid. They’re human. And the reader, recognizing something of themselves in the wreckage, leans in instead of pulling away.

Pressure Makes Stupidity Plausible

Here’s a craft principle worth tattooing somewhere visible:The worse the pressure, the more believable the mistake.A character who makes a catastrophic decision while relaxed, well-rested, and fully informed just looks foolish. A character who makes the same decision while exhausted, aroused, terrified, ashamed, grieving, or cornered looks like a person.So before you let your character do something reckless, ask what’s pressing on them. Sleep deprivation. A dying parent. A secret they’ve been carrying for a decade. An old wound reopening. The threat of exposure. The nearness of someone they were supposed to have gotten over.Pressure is the writer’s best friend. It’s the atmosphere in which bad decisions become inevitable, and inevitability is the twin sister of believability.

Consequences Are What Make It Literature

Here’s where a lot of writers flinch.They set up a beautiful, psychologically rich bad decision, and then they protect the character from the fallout. The affair gets forgiven too easily. The lie gets buried too neatly. The reckless choice turns out fine.The reader feels cheated. Because they came for the crash, and you gave them a fender bender.If a character does stupid shit and nothing happens, the story deflates. But if the decision creates real fallout, whether guilt, danger, betrayal, revelation, or transformation, then the stupidity becomes story fuel. It generates the next scene, the next conflict, the next choice.Bad decisions aren’t a problem in fiction. Unearned consequences are.

The Rule: Don’t Protect the Character

This is the hardest part of the craft, and it’s where most writers, especially newer ones, get stuck.You will love your characters. You will want to shield them. You will feel the impulse to soften the blow, to let them off the hook, to write the version where everyone forgives them and moves on.Resist it.Let bad decisions cost something. Let the character lose the friend, the job, the marriage, the version of themselves they thought they were. That’s where tension lives. That’s where tragedy lives. That’s where comedy lives, too, because there’s nothing funnier than a person insisting they had no choice while the wreckage of their choices piles up behind them.Your job isn’t to keep your characters safe.Your job is to make their choices matter.

Stop trying to write smart characters. Start writing desperate ones.Desperate for love. Desperate to be right. Desperate to be seen. Desperate to escape a version of themselves they can’t stand anymore. Give them wants so loud they drown out reason, and then let those wants drive them into decisions that any outside observer would call stupid.Because that’s what people are. That’s what we do. We are magnificent, ridiculous creatures who know better and do worse, and fiction that pretends otherwise is fiction that isn’t paying attention.Don’t make them dumb.Make them desperate.And then let the reader watch, breath held, as your character reaches for the doorknob of the basement they were told never to enter and understands, with terrible clarity, exactly why they had to.

Yes, I need to plug one of my books that is close to this… The Girl Who Broke Everything

Ellie Morrow has spent six years in the foster care system learning one lesson above all others: she breaks things.

Televisions implode when she’s angry. Pipes rupture when she dreams. Crows gather wherever she goes, silent and watchful, as though waiting for a signal only they can hear. And deep behind her sternum, something that is not quite a heartbeat pulses with a power she never asked for: a residual fire left over from the night a mysterious golden light filled her parents’ car on Route 9, killed everyone inside except her, and left a seven-year-old child without a scratch or an explanation.“You are not broken, Ellie. You are not dangerous. And you are not disposable.”But the foster care system disagrees. And so, when an estranged grandmother named Agatha Morrow arrives to claim her, a woman who chose thirty years of silence over the burden of explanation, Ellie is pulled from the only world she has ever known into something older and stranger: the breathing, sentient world of the Morrow women.

A bloodline of immense power stretching back centuries. A house on a nameless mountain, built above a nexus of forces older than language. A legacy of magic and grief, of doors that should not be opened and things that sleep beneath foundations, of wards that answer to family and a home that has been waiting for the right Morrow to return.But Ellie is not merely inheriting power. She is awakening something. The blood moon is coming, and whatever has been dreaming in the deep places beneath the Morrow house, vast, impossibly old, and stirring for the first time in generations, has begun to rise, drawn upward by a girl whose emotions can crack buildings and whose light can fill a room with the color of old gold.

Part coming-of-age story, part Gothic supernatural mystery, and part meditation on grief, survival, and the terrible weight of belonging to something larger than yourself, the Girl Who . . . series asks one question and dares its heroine to answer it:

What are you becoming—and what will it cost?

A Story to Start or End with Wheels

A Story to Start or End with Wheels

A story from a prompt:

Imagine this: a room filled with the hum of creativity, the scratching of pens against paper, and the occasional burst of laughter as ideas collide.

That’s where you’ll find me, well by zoom since I moved to the country, a proud director of our small but fiercely passionate Writing Group in my old hometown.

This week? Oh, this week is special. The challenge is simple yet brimming with possibility: craft a story that begins or ends with a bicycle.

A single object, two wheels, infinite potential. Will it be a tale of freedom, of mystery, or perhaps of heartbreak?

The group is ready to dig deep, to wrestle with their imaginations and see where the humble bicycle takes them.And you?

You’re about to get a front-row seat to the magic that unfolds. Buckle up (or should I say, hop on?). The journey is just about to begin.

The following is my story from a somewhat childhood memory, and an imagination, as a girl with freckles and red hair is a part of the story.

The Bicycle and the Bay Mare

The summer Thomas turned twelve, the world smelled of hot asphalt and cut grass, and his blue Schwinn bicycle was the finest thing he owned.

His father had rescued it from a yard sale for eight dollars, sanded off the rust, and painted it the color of a robin’s egg.

Thomas rode it everywhere: to the creek, to the library, to the little store on Miller Road where Mrs. Halvorsen sold penny candy that hadn’t cost a penny in thirty years.

That Tuesday afternoon in July, he was flying down Ridgewood Lane with a paper bag of licorice ropes bouncing in his front basket.

The wind pulled at his hair. His legs pumped in perfect rhythm. He was, he decided, the fastest boy in the county, possibly the state, possibly the world.

He was thinking exactly this when a horse came around the bend.

It was enormous, a mountain of muscle and gleaming chestnut hide, hooves hammering the pavement like a blacksmith’s anvil.

Thomas had just enough time to see the flash of a red-gold mane, both the horse’s and the rider’s, before he yanked his handlebars sideways and sailed straight into Mr. Peterson’s hedge.

The Schwinn went one way. Thomas went another. The licorice went everywhere.

“Oh my gosh, are you alive?”

A face appeared above him, upside down through the tangle of privet leaves. Freckles. Green eyes. Hair the color of a maple tree in October, spilling down in wild waves that seemed to catch every scrap of sunlight and hold it hostage.

“I think so,” Thomas managed. A leaf was in his mouth. He spit it out with what he hoped was dignity.

“I am so sorry. Dolly spooked at a plastic bag. She’s a total drama queen about plastic bags, and I couldn’t get her to …”

The girl paused, tilting her head. “You’re bleeding.”

Thomas touched his elbow. He was, indeed, bleeding. It seemed a small price to pay for continuing to be looked at by this person.

“I’m Ellen,” she said, offering a hand streaked with horse sweat and dust.

“Ellen Brennan. We just moved into the yellow house on Fox Hollow.”

“Thomas,” he said. His voice came out slightly strangled.

“Thomas Kepler.”

She helped him up, retrieved his bicycle (which had a new and interesting bend in the front fender), and gathered up as many licorice ropes as could be salvaged.

The horse, Dolly, watched all of this with the mild, unimpressed expression of a creature who had caused chaos and considered her work done.

“Come by the stable sometime,” Ellen said, swinging back into the saddle with an ease that struck Thomas as miraculous.

She clicked her tongue, and Dolly wheeled around and cantered off, and Thomas stood in the middle of Ridgewood Lane holding a bent bicycle and a bag of dirty licorice, and knew with absolute certainty that his life had changed.

He waited three days. Three days felt appropriately casual.

Three days felt like a boy who had many important things to do and only happened, in passing, to remember there was a stable on Fox Hollow.

In truth, he thought about it every waking minute.

The Brennan place was set back from the road behind a row of oaks, with a weathered red barn and a paddock ringed by white fencing that had gone gray at the posts.

Thomas leaned his Schwinn against a fence rail and walked toward the barn, and there, in the shadowed doorway, was Ellen, not in the jodhpurs and boots he’d half-expected, but in cutoff jeans and a t-shirt with a hole in the shoulder, mucking a stall with a pitchfork nearly as tall as she was.

“You came!” she said, and her whole face lit up in a way that made Thomas’s ears go hot.

“Come meet everybody.”

Everybody, it turned out, was not just Dolly.

There was Dolly, yes, the chestnut mare from the road, but also a stocky black gelding named Pepper, a spotted pony called Bandit who had, according to Ellen, “opinions,” and an ancient white horse named Mr. Biscuit who was thirty-one years old and, Ellen said solemnly, the finest gentleman she’d ever known.

Thomas offered his palm the way Ellen showed him, flat and steady, and Mr. Biscuit breathed onto it with a warm, hay-scented sigh.

Something inside Thomas’s chest turned over.

“You should ride,” Ellen said.

“I don’t know how.”

“That,” she said, “is exactly why you should learn.”

He came back the next day. And the day after.

Ellen was a patient teacher and a merciless one.

She made him groom Mr. Biscuit for a full week before she’d let him sit on the old horse’s back, and even then, only at a walk, in circles, in the corral, while she called out corrections from the fence.

“Heels down, Thomas!”

“They are down!”

“Down like you mean it. Like gravity is your personal friend.”

He fell off twice. The first time he landed in soft dirt and Ellen laughed so hard she had to sit down. The second time he landed in something considerably less soft, and Ellen laughed so hard she cried, and Thomas found that he didn’t mind at all, because when she laughed her whole face crinkled up and her freckles danced.

By August he could trot without bouncing.

By September he could post.

By the time the leaves turned, Ellen let him ride Pepper, and the two of them went out along the trails behind the Brennan property, ducking under low branches, Dolly and Pepper’s hooves whispering through the fallen leaves.

The Schwinn stayed in the yard, propped against the fence.

Years unfolded the way years do: quickly, when you look back at them; slowly, when you’re inside them.

Thomas grew tall and lean, with a rider’s hands and a rider’s seat.

Ellen grew into her freckles.

They rode through four autumns and three summers together, through a hundred sunsets over the ridge, through a season when Mr. Biscuit lay down in his stall and did not get up, and Thomas held Ellen while she cried into his shoulder for the finest gentleman she’d ever known.

There was the winter Ellen’s father lost his job and she came to school with red-rimmed eyes, and Thomas learned that sometimes the most useful thing a person could do was simply be present, and quiet, and steady, the way Mr. Biscuit had once been for both of them.

There was the spring Thomas’s mother got sick, and Ellen rode over on Dolly every single afternoon, and sat with him on the porch, and didn’t try to fix anything, because some things can’t be fixed, only witnessed.

There was the first kiss, under the oak tree by the corral, when Thomas was seventeen and Ellen was seventeen and a half and had never let him forget the half.

There was the college years, and the long-distance letters, and the summer they both came home and knew, without saying it, that they were done pretending to be uncertain.

There was a small wedding in the Brennan’s front pasture, with folding chairs borrowed from the church and Dolly, gone gray around the muzzle now, watching over the fence like a chaperone.

The blue Schwinn stayed leaned against the fence rail where Thomas had first left it.

At first, someone would move it. Ellen’s father, when he mowed; Thomas himself, when he remembered. But the years wore on, and the bicycle wore down. The tires went flat. The chain went orange with rust. Ivy found the wheels first, then the frame. A morning glory climbed the handlebars one summer and never really left.

A robin nested in the basket the year Ellen turned twenty-four, and the year after that, and the year after that.

Nobody moved it anymore. It had become part of the fence, part of the yard, part of the place. A blue-green ghost of the boy who had once been the fastest in the county, possibly the state, possibly the world.

It is a Saturday afternoon in late June, and Thomas is thirty-four years old.

He and Ellen are down by the lake behind what used to be her parents’ farm and is now, deed and mortgage and all, theirs.

A red plaid blanket is spread on the grass beneath the willow. The picnic basket, her grandmother’s, the wicker frayed at the corners, one hinge held together with baling wire, sits open and mostly empty.

There are the last crusts of a sandwich. A jar with two swallows of lemonade. A peach with two bites taken out of it, one small (hers) and one large (his).

Not far off, in the shallow slope of the pasture, two horses graze in the slow, unhurried way of horses who know they are home.

One is a bay mare with a white star. The other is a chestnut gelding whose sire, if you traced the papers back far enough, was a mare named Dolly.

Ellen is lying on her back with her head in Thomas’s lap. Her red hair, still absurd, still catching every scrap of sunlight it can find, is spread across his knee. He is twirling a piece of it around his finger, the way he has been doing for fifteen years, the way he suspects he will still be doing when they are eighty.

“Do you remember,” she says, eyes closed, “the licorice?”

“I remember the licorice.”

“It was disgusting. The licorice.”

“It was covered in gravel.”

“And you ate it anyway.”

“I did not.”

“You did. I saw you. You ate a piece with a leaf stuck to it because you were trying to seem casual.”

Thomas laughs. Somewhere up by the house, on the other side of the pasture, leaning against a fence rail nobody has repainted in twenty years, a blue Schwinn bicycle is quietly dissolving into the landscape. Weeds have grown up through its spokes. A morning glory is in bloom on its handlebars. If you didn’t know it had once been a bicycle, you might not guess.

If you did know, you might think it looked less like a ruin and more like a small, patient monument. To a boy who rode too fast around a corner. To a girl on a horse who couldn’t stop. To the exact and unrepeatable accident of two lives colliding on a summer afternoon and choosing, ever after, not to come apart.

Ellen opens her eyes and looks up at him. The freckles are still there. The green eyes are still there. Everything, somehow, is still there.

“Thomas,” she says.

“Yes.”

“I’m really glad you didn’t die in that hedge.”

He bends down and kisses her forehead. The horses graze. The lake laps at the shore. The picnic basket holds its small ruins with dignity.

“Me too,” he says. “Me too.”

A Whisper from the Past, a Chance at Redemption

If that little taste of my writing intrigued you, then you won’t want to miss my novel, Nothing But Time.It begins with a letter…a letter that arrives three weeks after Jack Harper stopped mattering.Jack gave everything to his career.

His marriage slipped through his fingers. His daughter grew up without him. Forty-one years of sunsets went unwatched, and the roses? Never smelled.

Now retired, redundant, and utterly adrift, Jack is left wondering if it was all worth it.

Then, out of nowhere, he inherits an old farmhouse from Ed, the friend who once tried to warn him.

Ed, who escaped to Vermont years ago, died alone, and left Jack with one simple instruction:

“Tend the roses. Stop and smell them. Live.”

But the farmhouse isn’t what it seems. The radio crackles with broadcasts from 1943. The roses bloom when Jack kneels in the soil. And at the edge of the orchard, Ed keeps appearing—smiling, waiting, calling Jack to finally understand what he refused to see all those years.Some second chances come with instructions. Some come with ghosts.

Are you ready to discover which one Jack will choose?

Nothing But Time

Your Voice Matters

If this story resonated with you, don’t hold back, leave a comment! 

Your thoughts, your reactions, and your support are what keep this journey alive. I know you’re out there, and your presence means everything to me.

Go ahead, share your voice, and let’s keep this connection alive.
Have a blessed day…you’re the reason I do this.

-Scott

Effective Ways to Help the Homeless Without Enabling

Effective Ways to Help the Homeless Without Enabling

This post is different.

I usually write to help you build something, fix something, or figure something out. I might write to market my latest novel but not today.

Today I want to sit with you in one of the most uncomfortable questions I’ve ever wrestled with.

What do we do with the broken people we pass every day?

The ones on the corners.

The ones in the doorways.

The ones with the cardboard signs and the hollow eyes.

The ones who, if we are honest with ourselves, may have played a role in ending up right where they are.

Do we say it out loud?

Do we admit that some of this suffering was self-inflicted? Or is that too cruel, too cold, too close to the kind of judgment we were taught never to speak?

And if it is true. . . then what?

I’ve lost count.I truly have.

Over a career that carried me across this country and into the belly of nearly every major city you can name, I’ve been approached, followed, cornered, pleaded with, cursed at, and quietly broken by the homeless.

Not once. Not twice. Countless times.

In the big cities, they are treated like litter, something the wind might carry away if we all just look somewhere else long enough. But they don’t blow away. They are still there in the morning. Still there at night. Still there the next time you visit, sometimes on the same corner, sometimes gone in a way that makes you wonder if they made it through the winter at all.

I’ve walked through underground parking garages where footsteps echo a little too loudly and shadows move a little too quickly.

I’ve navigated tunnels and back alleys where the request for “just a dollar, man” came with an edge sharp enough to make my pulse quicken.

Not everyone out there is dangerous. Not everyone is dishonest. But some are, and pretending otherwise doesn’t help anyone.

I knew a man who panhandled by day, rolling up to intersections on a scooter with a cardboard sign and a practiced expression of despair. By night? He drove home to an affluent neighborhood most working families couldn’t afford.

He was stealing, not with a weapon, but with a story. Stealing from the retiree who rolled down her window. Stealing from the single mom who felt guilty eating fast food in front of him. Stealing from the very people who could barely afford to give.

And then there are the others. The ones you can’t forget no matter how hard you try.

The ones with no teeth. The ones whose skin has been chewed raw by whatever chemical is running through their veins. The ones whose eyes don’t quite focus on you anymore, whose voices have been sandpapered down to a rasp by endless smoking, whose bodies have become hollow shells of the sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, mothers, and fathers they used to be.

The drugs took the person and left the outline behind.And it only gets worse.

The brain demands more. The dose climbs. The desperation deepens. What started as a craving becomes a cage, and the person inside is running out of room.

I’ve buried friends and family over this. Good people. People I laughed with, worked with, believed in. People who are not coming back.

And I would be lying if I said that doesn’t sit heavy on me every time I see someone on a corner who looks like they’re heading the same direction.

That’s where the trouble begins for people like us. Because we’re fixers. We see a problem and we want to solve it. We see suffering and we want to end it. We see someone drowning and every instinct in us screams do something.

But you can’t just walk up to a stranger consumed by addiction and say, “Please stop.” You can’t buy them out of it. You can’t love them out of it. You can’t lecture them out of it.So what can we do?

If they need a meal, do we buy them one?

If they need a coat, do we hand it over?

If they need a car, do we go out and get them one?

Would that fix it?

Would that be the answer we’ve been searching for?

Or is that just another version of tossing money into a bucket with no bottom?

These are the questions that haunt anyone who has ever really looked a homeless person in the eyes and seen a human being staring back. And they deserve better answers than the easy ones we’ve been giving ourselves.

Let’s talk about what really helps, and what only feels like it does.

The Right Way to Help the Homeless: Compassion Without Enabling

Most of us have been there.You pull up to a red light and see someone holding a cardboard sign. You walk past someone sleeping in a doorway. You recognize the same person outside the gas station, the grocery store, the freeway ramp. Maybe they ask for money. Maybe they look sick, exhausted, intoxicated, angry, ashamed, or completely detached from the world around them.And if you have a conscience, it bothers you.So we reach for the easiest answer: a few dollars, a sandwich, a bottle of water, a quick “God bless,” and then we move on. Sometimes that small act is sincere kindness. But many people quietly wonder: Am I actually helping, or am I just trying to feel better for a moment?That is an uncomfortable question, but it is the right one.


Homelessness Is Not One Simple Problem

It is tempting to explain homelessness with one answer.Some say it is all about poverty. Others say it is all addiction. Others blame mental illness, broken families, bad choices, domestic abuse, the economy, unaffordable housing, or failed government systems.The truth is this: homelessness is usually a collision of several problems at once.A person may have grown up in trauma, developed an addiction, lost a job, burned family bridges, suffered mental illness, gone to jail, lost custody of children, or been unable to afford rent after one medical emergency. Sometimes they are victims. Sometimes they have made destructive choices. Often, both are true.That is what makes the issue so difficult.We can acknowledge suffering without pretending every story is simple. We can have compassion without abandoning common sense. We can recognize addiction and mental illness without treating people as less than human.


The Problem With “Just Giving Money”

When we see someone panhandling, giving money feels like the most direct form of help. It is fast. It is personal. It feels generous.But cash is not always help.Sometimes it buys food. Sometimes it buys a bus ticket. Sometimes it helps someone survive another day. But sometimes it feeds the very addiction that is destroying that person’s body, mind, relationships, and future.The painful truth is that many people living on the street are struggling with substance abuse. Not all, but many. Alcohol, fentanyl, meth, heroin, and other drugs are common realities in street homelessness. Addiction changes the brain. It changes priorities. It can make survival revolve around the next drink, pill, pipe, or needle.So when we hand someone cash, we often do not know what we are funding.That does not mean every homeless person is an addict. It does not mean every request is dishonest. But it does mean that good intentions are not the same as good outcomes.If our goal is truly to help, we have to be willing to ask whether our help is useful … or merely easy.


Addiction, Excuses, and Responsibility

Many people on the street have heartbreaking stories. Abuse. Neglect. Betrayal. Trauma. Abandonment. Loss. And many of those stories are true.But trauma does not erase responsibility.A terrible childhood may explain how someone began drinking or using drugs. An abusive relationship may explain how someone lost stability. Mental illness may explain why someone cannot hold a job or maintain housing.But explanation is not the same as solution.At some point, healing requires honesty. It requires treatment. It requires structure. It requires accountability. And for many people caught in addiction, it requires more than a few dollars from strangers.

Real help does not simply soothe pain for one more night. Real help points toward recovery.


The “Rock Bottom” Question

Many people believe addicts must “hit rock bottom” before they will accept help. There is some truth in the idea that people often do not change until the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the fear of change.But there is also a danger in this thinking.For people addicted to fentanyl, alcohol, meth, or other destructive substances, rock bottom may be death. It may be brain damage, overdose, violence, organ failure, losing a limb, or disappearing completely from anyone who ever loved them.So while consequences matter, we should be careful about wishing for “rock bottom.”

A better goal is this:Let people face reality without helping them destroy themselves.That means we should not enable addiction. But it also means we should not become cold, cruel, or indifferent. The challenge is to practice compassion with boundaries.


Compassion With Boundaries

Compassion does not mean giving people whatever they ask for.

If someone asks for money, you are allowed to say no. You can say it kindly. You do not owe an explanation, and you do not need to argue.

You might say:“I’m sorry, I don’t give cash, but I can offer you food or water.”Or:“I can’t help with money, but I can point you toward a shelter or outreach service.”Or simply:“I hope you get help. Take care of yourself.”Boundaries are not cruelty. Boundaries are often the difference between helping and enabling.


Better Ways to Help in the Moment

If you regularly encounter homeless people or panhandlers and want to help without handing out cash, there are practical alternatives.Consider keeping small care items in your car or bag:

  • Bottled water
  • Protein bars or easy-to-eat snacks
  • Socks
  • Hand warmers in cold weather
  • Hygiene wipes
  • Toothbrush and toothpaste
  • Travel-size deodorant
  • Feminine hygiene products
  • A printed list of local shelters, food banks, detox centers, and crisis lines

These things may not solve homelessness, but they can meet a real need without fueling addiction.Food is not always accepted. Water may be refused. Hygiene kits may be ignored. That can be frustrating. But remember: your job is not to control the outcome. Your job is to offer help wisely.


The Best Help Usually Comes Through People Equipped to Help

Most of us are not trained social workers, addiction counselors, mental health professionals, or crisis responders. We are ordinary people trying to respond to a very complex problem.That is why one of the best things we can do is support organizations that are actually equipped for this work.Look for groups that provide:

  • Addiction treatment
  • Detox services
  • Mental health care
  • Transitional housing
  • Job training
  • Case management
  • Domestic violence support
  • Veterans services
  • Food and shelter
  • Long-term recovery programs

Donating to effective local organizations may feel less personal than handing cash to someone on a corner, but it is often far more helpful.A dollar given to a person may disappear in minutes. A dollar given to the right organization can become part of a system that offers food, counseling, treatment, housing, and accountability.


Housing Matters… But Housing Alone Is Not Always Enough

There is strong evidence that stable housing can dramatically improve outcomes for people experiencing homelessness. It is hard to get sober, take medication, apply for jobs, attend appointments, or rebuild a life while sleeping under a bridge.But housing alone does not fix everything.Someone deep in addiction or untreated mental illness may need intensive support. They may need detox. They may need medication. They may need supervision, counseling, community, and consequences. They may need people who will not abandon them … but also will not lie to them.The most effective help often combines housing, treatment, accountability, and human connection.


Do Not Dehumanize the Person in Front of You

It is easy to become hardened when you see the same people panhandling every day. It is easy to notice the missing teeth, the raspy voice, the open sores, the erratic behavior, the signs of addiction, and think, “They did this to themselves.”Sometimes, yes, choices played a role.But every person on the street was once a child. Someone once held them. Someone once hoped for them. Many were wounded long before they became visibly broken.That does not mean we excuse everything. It means we refuse to let frustration turn into contempt.A person can be responsible for their choices and still be worthy of dignity.

That balance matters.


What Not to Do

If you want to help wisely, avoid these common mistakes:

  • Do not give cash just to relieve your guilt.
  • Do not assume every homeless person is lazy.
  • Do not assume every homeless person is an addict.
  • Do not lecture someone on the street.
  • Do not put yourself in unsafe situations.
  • Do not make promises you cannot keep.
  • Do not confuse pity with real help.
  • Do not enable behavior that is clearly destructive.

Good intentions can still cause harm when they are not paired with wisdom.


What You Can Do Instead

Here is a better approach:

  1. Treat the person with basic respect.
    Make eye contact if it feels safe. Speak like they are human.
  2. Set clear boundaries.
    You can be kind and still say no to cash.
  3. Offer practical items.
    Food, water, socks, hygiene supplies, or resource cards are often better than money.
  4. Support local organizations.
    Give to shelters, recovery programs, outreach teams, and ministries with proven work.
  5. Know your local resources.
    Save phone numbers for crisis lines, shelters, detox centers, and outreach services.
  6. Call for help when needed.
    If someone appears unconscious, overdosing, freezing, injured, or in danger, call emergency services.
  7. Advocate for real solutions.
    Support policies and programs that combine housing, treatment, mental health care, and accountability.

The Hard Truth About Helping

Helping the homeless is not as simple as being generous. Sometimes generosity is easy. Wisdom is harder.It may feel kind to give someone exactly what they ask for. But if what they ask for helps keep them trapped, then we have to rethink our approach.The goal is not to punish people for being homeless. The goal is not to ignore suffering. The goal is not to look away.The goal is to help in a way that points toward life.That means compassion, but not enabling. Boundaries, but not cruelty. Honesty, but not contempt. Assistance, but not blind guilt.


A Better Kind of Compassion

The next time you see someone panhandling, pause before you reach for cash.Ask yourself:Am I helping this person move toward stability, treatment, safety, or recovery? Or am I simply trying to feel less uncomfortable?

That question changes everything.Because the homeless person on the corner does not need our guilt. They do not need our judgment either.They need something much harder to give:truthful compassion.The kind that sees their humanity, recognizes their pain, refuses to enable their destruction, and supports real paths toward recovery.That may not be the easiest answer.But it is probably the more loving one.

A family member begging for a fix asked me, If you’re a Christian how can you refuse to give me money?

Well…What do you think? Guilted by a family member through my faith….?

Throughout Scripture, God consistently identifies Himself as a defender of the poor, the widow, the orphan, and the stranger.

Proverbs 19:17 says, “Whoever is generous to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will repay him for his deed.

Psalm 82:3 commands, “Give justice to the weak and the fatherless; maintain the right of the afflicted and the destitute.

Deuteronomy 15:11 reminds us, “There will never cease to be poor in the land. Therefore I command you, ‘You shall open wide your hand to your brother, to the needy and to the poor, in your land.'”The message is clear. God sees the poor. God cares about the poor. And He calls His people to do the same.

How do we juxtapose that with what I have laid out above?

The Bible speaks plainly about the destructive nature of substance abuse. It does not use the modern word addiction, but it describes the reality vividly.

Proverbs 23:29-32 paints a haunting picture: “Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has strife? Who has complaining? Who has wounds without cause? Who has redness of eyes? Those who tarry long over wine. . . . In the end it bites like a serpent and stings like an adder.”

1 Corinthians 6:12 offers this wisdom: “‘All things are lawful for me,’ but not all things are helpful. ‘All things are lawful for me,’ but I will not be dominated by anything.“Addiction is domination. It is bondage. Scripture takes it seriously, not with shame, but with sober honesty. And it points to freedom, not endless enabling, as the true goal.

This one I have used a few times…

Ephesians 4:15 calls believers to speak “the truth in love.”

Proverbs 27:6 says, “Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy.”

Sometimes the most loving thing is not what feels good in the moment. Sometimes love says no.

Sometimes love sets boundaries.

Sometimes love lets natural consequences do the work that comfort cannot.

But love never turns cold.

Love never becomes contempt.

Love never gives up on the dignity of another human being.

The foundation of everything the Bible says on this subject is this. Every person, no matter how broken, no matter how addicted, no matter how ragged, no matter how frustrating, bears the image of God.

Genesis 1:27 says, “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him.”

Proverbs 14:31 takes it further: “Whoever oppresses a poor man insults his Maker, but he who is generous to the needy honors him.”That is why we cannot look away. That is why we cannot dehumanize the person on the corner. That is why “they did this to themselves” is never the final word on a human soul.Even a person destroyed by addiction is still image-bearing. Still valuable. Still loved by God. Still worth praying for. Still worth hoping for.

And this is what makes it hard to simply toss money at the problem or the person.

So what does the Bible say about helping the homeless?

It says to care.

It says to give.

It says to see them as human.

It says to remember that our treatment of the least of these is our treatment of Christ Himself.

But it also says to be wise.

To not enable destruction.

To distinguish between genuine need and manipulation.

To love enough to tell the truth.

To work through community rather than guilt.

To point people toward real freedom rather than temporary relief.

And above all, it says that no one is beyond redemption.

That is the biblical balance.

Compassion without enabling.

Generosity without foolishness.

Truth without cruelty.

Hope without naivety.

It is a harder path than simply handing over a dollar and driving away. But it is the path Scripture calls us to walk.

And if we walk it well, we may find that we are not just helping the homeless.We are being changed ourselves.

Have a Blessed Day!

“From 9/11 to Flock Cameras: The Dystopian Novel I Started 15 Years Ago”

“From 9/11 to Flock Cameras: The Dystopian Novel I Started 15 Years Ago”

September 9, 2011, started like any other day. While stuck at a traffic light, I was on the phone with our New York office. Something happened; they put me on hold, and as I drove to the Dallas office, I listened to the world change. We can argue about the rumors that still surround Building 7, but suffice it to say, the world changed.

My normal way of dealing with grief is not to drone on about it with friends or family. My way is to write about it. If you follow me at all, you have no doubt read my blog post about writing letters or emails to people who are, let’s say, less than congenial. I use expletives and what have you to get the anger out of me and into the digital ethos, and of course, as much as I want to, I never send it. Burning bridges and being known as a hothead will get you nowhere.

Fast-forward six weeks after 9/11 and at least 3,000 deaths by “some people who did some things.” Bush and his administration enacted the Patriot Act, which is still alive and well today. The things those people did allowed our government to strip away some of our rights, trading them for safety. “Do you feel safe?”

Fast-forward to the Flock cameras, data centers, Alexa devices, smartphones, and, of course, drones. Do you feel safe?

Those Flock cameras, I learned, have microphones.

So, while spending these summer months of 100-plus-degree days clearing out old computer hardware, I found that file from 2011. I had started a book about a fictional city where a horrible event occurred, and much like the Patriot Act, what we see today closely resembles what I put into my book. Being a fan of Orwell, I wrote a dystopian near-future novel that is all but ready for one last edit.

Stay tuned for more updates and for when the book drops.

I am thinking about putting it on KDP Unlimited for those of you who can read it for free. Follow, hit that like button, and comment below if you have ideas you would like to share.Best,

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What Are the Odds?

What Are the Odds?

A Writer’s Honest Take on Contests, Scams, and Chasing the Dream

What are the odds?As a writer and author, I occasionally post a story from a prompt and feed the machine $5 for a “chance” to win a contest. I also play the lottery from time to time. Not that I have an ice cube’s chance in hell of winning, but I do it when I travel. Long car trips on flat, nothing roads are a great way to ask the proverbial “what if?”

What would I do with X millions if I won? It could happen, right? Fortunately, I know what statistics are, so I don’t get too carried away with the fantasy. The same is true for casting my story onto the Reedsy website. Often, I look at the winning story and ask, how the hell did that one win?! I think I know.

The Predators in My Inbox

Putting my own vanity aside, the same skepticism applies to the predators who comment on my books through email, asking me if I would consider allowing them to be my agent. Truthfully, I could use their pitch about my book as a cover blurb. Of course, AI wrote it, and of course, it’s a scam designed to prey on my ego.

So I ask once again: what are the odds?

I have at least five people with the first name “Lauren” as new followers on my Reedsy story site.

All of the Laurens have different last names, and each of them is tempting my ego to override my God-given good sense. They want me to hand over money so they can “take my writing to the next level.”

The Engagement Game

IMHO, if I really wanted my story to win, I’d get everyone on this blog to go over there and “like” my story. That would tweak the algorithm, and maybe then a judge might actually read it and think, “Wow, that’s pretty good.”

Again IMHO, I seriously doubt someone sits down and reads 300-plus stories, each week and carefully weigh the pros and cons of each before crowning a winner. Much like monetized social media with its clicks, likes, and comments, contest platforms probably use engagement as a tool. (If I’m wrong, feel free to comment.)

So Why Do I Keep Paying the $5?

Ever since I ran across a young woman on YouTube (I think her name was Laura) who was going through school at the time parroting what she learned in vlogs, I wanted her company to succeed. They’re a bona fide business now and offer many services. I write, and I pay the money for feedback from other writers that range from “Wow, that’s a great story!” to “You need to make your character feel more like a living person instead of a zombie.”

A Modest Proposal for Reedsy

I propose the following adjustments to the current contest model:

  1. Introduce Written Feedback for All Entries Provide each contestant, regardless of outcome, with a brief written critique from a qualified reader or editor. Even two to three sentences of constructive commentary would deliver meaningful value.
  2. Adjust the Entry Fee to $10 Increasing the fee from $5 to $10 offsets the cost of providing individualized feedback and positions the contest as a premium, value-added service rather than a low-stakes lottery.
  3. Expand the Prize Pool A larger prize, funded in part by the adjusted fee structure, would attract a greater number of participants and elevate the prestige of the competition.

Anticipated Benefits

  • Increased Participant Retention: Writers will feel they are receiving tangible value for their investment, win or lose.
  • Enhanced Platform Credibility: Offering expert feedback reinforces the platform’s role as a professional development resource, not merely a contest host.
  • Higher Entry Volume: A larger prize purse combined with guaranteed feedback is likely to draw new entrants and reengage lapsed ones.
  • Stronger Competitive Positioning: Few writing contests currently offer feedback as part of the standard entry package. Adopting this model would differentiate the platform in a crowded market.

Feasibility Considerations

Assuming contest judging is conducted by human evaluators rather than automated tools, the additional effort required to generate short-form feedback should be minimal relative to the review process already underway. In practical terms, if judges are already reading entries to determine winners, capturing a few lines of impressions per submission is a modest incremental task with significant participant-facing value.

The proposed changes represent a low-risk, high-reward adjustment to the existing contest structure. By transforming the entry fee into an investment in personal development rather than a speculative gamble, the platform can strengthen participant loyalty, grow contest participation, and reinforce its standing as a trusted partner to the writing community.

A Note to My Fellow Writers

To every writer out there navigating this strange landscape with me, this one’s for you.

If you’re like me, your inbox is probably overflowing with “We love your book!” messages from “xyz Publishers” @gmail.com.

Go ahead, borrow that AI-generated blurb if it flatters you, have a laugh, and move on.

We’ve all seen them. We all know the game.

And if you, like me, still enter contests with your eyes wide open, take heart. The genuine followers you gain along the way, the ones who take the time to read your story and leave a thoughtful comment, are the real prize.

They aren’t trying to scam you. They’re walking the same road you are.There are too many of us to name, but we share something powerful in common: the desire to be the best writers we can be.

We keep showing up. We keep submitting. We keep writing, even when the odds feel long and the noise feels loud.

That shared drive is what makes this community worth being part of.

I’ve shared several tips on this blog to help fellow writers sharpen their craft, and I’ll keep adding more.

If any of this resonates with you, follow along for future posts, drop a comment below and tell me about your own experiences, and let’s keep lifting each other up.We’re in this together.

Have a blessed day!

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