Are you called? Is this God that some worship, real?
Let me preface this blog by saying that I am not, and hope to never be one of those “Bible Thumpers” that the South is rife with.
There is a time and place.
Shopping in a local store during the day an elderly man approached me. “Do you know Jesus?” he asked!
Immediately my red flags of “crazy person alert” sprang into action looking for places and or reasons to leave. This guy was probably 80-ish, about 5 foot nothing and was sporting the “old man shuffle.” Having gotten over my first reaction and sizing this man up as someone who had either escaped the home or, who was “thumping and imaginary bible” or as someone who was genuinely concerned for his fellow man ending up devoid of our savior.
After listening to him for a moment I elected to think more of the latter and not so much of the two earlier choices, besides; “I could move much faster than he had he gotten totally nuts.”
As it happened however he was “preaching” to the choir.
Firstly I have never met a stranger. If you are nice to me, I will return the favor and kind.
I have always been a “good person:”
Can you be a good person without god? Some would tell you yes, and some would tell you no. If you have read many of my blogs, you know that I am not a fan of preaching speculation as fact. The answer is that “I don’t know.”
The religious ilk would tell you that you cannot be a good person without god. God is responsible for everything good and the devil for everything bad. That dichotomy to me is too simplistic of an answer much like “Jesus” is most always the correct answer for any question asked in Sunday school. Not buying it.
At my earliest remembrances, God has always played a pivotal role in my life. I did not always realize that it was God doing it.
The most expensive .50 cents:
While visiting my grandfather one summer, there was a stash of coins placed on a piece of furniture and before we departed, I took 2 quarters. I was not aware at the tender age of 4 what theft was, or that had I simply asked; my grandfather would have most likely given me the whole amount of what was there, he was that kind of person.
Before we got home from Minnesota to Texas, I was lamenting what I had done. Why, I was still not sure, I just sensed that what I had done was wrong.
You must understand that in the 1960 .50 cents was a lot of money. That represented a good handful of candy from the local Stop and Go! Never however; was candy so bitter to me. Had I traded my soul for candy?
The theft of those two quarters plagued me through my childhood. Had I confessed my crime I am not certain what my parents would have thought or done, and had I had the opportunity to confess to my grandfather, I know now that he would have embraced me and told me not to worry about it. That however is now, fifty some odd years after the fact.
I say fifty some odd years later because I never confessed my crime. Not catholic so no asking some “father” for forgiveness.
In my late teenage years my grandfather came to live with us. His neighbors reported to us that at the age of 84 he was up on his roof repairing some damage to it. My parents could not stomach the idea of him falling or getting hurt and nobody would know.
After he was moved in, I went into his room when he was out of the house and placed some coinage on his desk. The pain of the theft of many years ago was lessened but, strangely enough; returned some years later!
Actions have consequences:
It was not too many years after arriving at our home he passed away during the night. I grieved for him for many years. Every Saturday night I would come into his room, and he and I would watch wrestling together. He would get so excited yelling at the TV screaming, “kick him!” or some other armchair quarterback commands! I knew that it was all choreographed acting but, if he thought it was real, so be it. It was simply quality time between him and me. The rest of the family seem to tolerate him but I genuinely loved him.
Years after his death that damned .50 cents haunted me once again. I would argue that I paid it back many times over, “stop worrying about it!” I would tell myself. Still, to this very day I still think about it from time to time but, not with the usual pain that it once caused me.
You see, everything that you have ever done was supposed to happen as it did to teach you something. I truly believe that. In a dream, which I still remember to this day were the undeniable instruction to let it go, it was a teaching moment and you would not be who you are today had things transpired differently.
You could argue that my subconscious was talking to my semi-conscious as a defense mechanism or you could argue that God was playing a role. You could even argue that it was the spirit of my grandfather. I will never know on this side of heaven but, I am finally at peace with it, and any other transgression that I have perpetrated in my life. The lesson was to learn to forgive myself, and if I ever found myself in that situation again, asked for forgiveness from those that I have “trespassed” against.
Truthfully, that .50 cents has done more to dissuade me from ever even thinking about doing something that is not upright. The price is simply too high!
Some will read that and laugh at my stupidity. “It was only fifty cents for crying out loud!” To me it was not the money but; the simple fact that I took that which was not mine. If you are one of those laughing at this, I suggest self-examination.
Were you ever a teacher’s Pet?
One of my favorite teachers was my fifth grade teacher. She was very impressed with me for some reason. I was I guess “teacher’s pet” but I never intended to be, nor did do anything special to get there. In the fifth grade we still did “show and tell.”
At that age I was in the middle of teaching myself electronics, as I was fascinated by radio and TV! How could a man in some distant location speak into a microphone and his voice come through some small tinny speaker many miles away!
How could a movie or news program be transmitted from one place and show up on the TV screen and how did making moving pictures actually work,! I was 9 and there was no such thing as cable.
I was not aware of the first satellite for TV, fax, radio and phone but in 1962 the first one was launched by name of Telstar. Live audio from the Vietnam War was broadcast over the radio. Some reporter was there as live machine gun fire could be heard in the background. I was entranced!
Today we have a wealth of information a mouse click away. Back then, you had to get to know Dewy. I did. During show and tell I would give “lectures” about the things that I was studying. Not to show off but, I found it fascinating and why not share that with the class. I still remember one day explaining how radio wave propagation worked, complete with diagrams, names of the different layers of the atmosphere and how they were affected by the sun! I actually remember explaining what “refraction” was and how radio waves “skipped” off of the different layers. That was not my first such lecture, and this one she had invited the principle to sit in without my knowledge. At that time I had never met him, and dismissed his presence as I went about “doing my thing.”
To quote Humphrey Bogart, it was the beginning of a beautiful friendship. For the rest of my fifth grade and through part of sixth, he and I were friends, a truly good man. He passed that year and the school went from Webb’s Chapel Elementary to Neil Ray McLaughlin Elementary, which it still is today.
On the last day of that fifth grade class I was asked if I would like to come up on that following Monday and assist her with cleaning out the storage room, and organize things for the next year. No thinking was required. Monday morning I showed up early and spent the last and final day with her. Before parting she offered me a present. This present was an unexpected Bible of the King James Version with an inscription from who it was given by, and to whom it went. I don’t think many other version existed then, thinking back, I think I know how she got the idea.
Easter of that year; we were all asked to draw what Easter meant to us. I was a budding artist, even back then so I put all of my juice into creating the happiest looking fluffy bunny with psychedelic eggs in a basket and with some on a “trail” on a bright spring day. I even remember playing the song in my mind as I was working “Here comes Peter Cotton Tail….” As I was putting the finishing touches on my masterpiece my song and vision of what I was drawing was shattered as I heard one of the girls sitting next to me start to snicker. As more of the others started to snicker I looked up to find they were snickering at me and my “creation!”
What was so funny? As I looked around the room the vision of what they drew is still indelibly etched in my mind! Every one of their pictures were macabre, dark with a black sky and some bearded white guy with blue eyes on a cross. It was Terrible! Is this what Easter meant to so many? Instead of a favorite “candy holiday” they thought that some guy nailed to a cross was what it was! It was clear at that point that I was un-churched, and I was mocked by the entire class. If there were any other bunny’s in the room, they quickly disappeared; as I was the first one noticed.
As the teacher came back into the room to find the laughter and the mocking of my Bunny, she quickly took control of the situation. The moment passed by the next day, but not for me. That stayed with me even to this day. I don’t hold them in contempt; it remained relevant as I learned that one cannot afford to be so wrapped up in one thing that they are no longer part of this world. The Munster’s were popular in the day and I envied Grandpa, and his basement; with all of his laboratory stuff and even the trap door! Things are easy to understand and wrap your head around; people, not so much.
That summer I plowed through the bible which I still have to this day. The Bible had the distinctive smell of leather and the paper was so thin that one had to be really careful with it. I have to admit that King James was a little hard to read and understand; truthfully I understood little of it. My favorite book at that time was Psalms, with Proverbs running a close second.
Gaining a basic understanding of Christianity that summer, I was no longer susceptible to the “Christian” traps of the world of which I lived.
So, was I called or pushed?
As I read the Bible I found some of the things in there; “crazy talk!” I went about studying it, making notes about how the flood , the ark.and snakes that talked! I reasoned that snakes could not ever talk and where did Cain’s Wife come from?
The flood has been scientifically proven as impossible and… Lets talk about the ARK!
One of my Church of Christ friends told me “you just have to have faith.” BS! Having faith in talking snakes and why the hell would God put a fruit bearing tree in the Garden of Eden where Adam and Eve lived and then forbid them to eat of it? That to me is like giving a child a big red sucker and say, don’t eat it. Crazy talk!
Another told me when arguing the age of the earth that it was a little over 4 thousand years old and I the scientific minded person retorted, have you ever heard of Carbon dating? “That has been proven to be not reliable!” What about the dinosaur bones? “Don’t you think that the God of the universe could create those bones and put them there?” For what purpose would he do such a thing? Blank stare…
Firstly, carbon dating is incredibly reliable. What kind of Kool-aid was this guy drinking?
One argument with a preacher of the Church of Christ, why don’t you have music in your church? “Because the bible tells us to make beautiful sounds with your voice.” What about celebrate with the harp, the trumpet etc.? “We don’t go by the old testament.” What! The Old Testament is a preface to the new, complete with prophesies foretelling of events to come, they go together! “Well that is the way that we believe.” End of argument, end of story. Here, drink some of this purple drink and then it will all make sense.
The simple facts are that Science and the bible must necessarily be juxtaposed! If God created all things or had a hand in it, he must be the greatest physicist, scientist, biologist etc. that ever was and is; or it is all evolution, from ooze to youze, and there is no God! Science and God must necessarily co-exists!
Many people over the years have become strong Christians by way of trying to de-bunk Christ. The problem is that many had a hand at writing the bible and while some take it completely as literal “the world was covered by hundreds of feet of water,” science has proved beyond a shadow of a doubt that it never happened. Noah made this huge ship 500 some feet long, without a rudder, and put two of every kind of animal in it, and lasted through massive storms for over a year!
Nice story but, scientifically impossible. Wooden ships of that time “the copper age” leaked like crazy. There was no caulk in the day so the boards were made with trees and shaved with copper tools to fit together and lashed with rope made out of plant bark. Looking at the technology of the day found in a well preserved ship, there is not a possible way one could have been made that size with what they had to work with. It simply could not be constructed to be viable. Secondly, a boat built like that without a rudder would capsize in any kind of rough water. Again science today has proven that time and time again. So how do we reconcile Genesis? Allegory.
It is a story meant to teach principle, not history. How many people get lost in such things and therefor don’t believe anything in the bible? Staunch supporters of “every word in the bible is factual history and was spoken directly by god” need to give it a little more thought. There is a dichotomy between some “believers and science types.” Some science type toss out God and the bible as that which is written for those with low IQ or low cognitive abilities. If it brings you comfort and you don’t mind tossing away 10% of your money, and time to propagate a myth, have at it. I am off to hunt for the “god particle.”
Conversely, some religious types take the bible as the end all be all to everything and do not know anything of science and do not want to know anything of science. Why? Because their “faith” is so weakly constructed that they fear that learning anything about science, would threaten it. Or, they are simply too damned lazy.
The Truth is the Truth:
If you don’t have the intestinal fortitude to look at all the facts; me personally, I discount you. One must look at all of the facts through an unbiased eye and put them together. Once you learn the total truth, embrace it and talk of it boldly.
I once was trying to speak with an overly religious person about science. I asked him if he had an open mind. He said “sure, I have an open mind, as long as it does not conflict with anything in the bible I am open to discuss it!” Holy Hannah, you have got to be kidding me! Take the blue pill my friend and don’t waste any more of my time. That is probably one of the most ignorant sentences that I have ever heard. If your faith is so weak that you will not consider that what you “believe to be true” in fact may not be true, “You are deluded!”
Safety in numbers:
There is currently well over 3000 different denominations of Christianity! Tell me, how the hell does that happen?
For years the early church would not allow you to own a bible. They ordered them destroyed. Why? Because you are too stupid to understand the bible as written, so they must spoon-feed what they want you to believe. That is how the early church screwed up. That is why we had the reformation as Martin Luther read the bible for himself and said “Whaaaaat, this does not gel with what we are taught.” It was in fact a way to control the masses.
So, he was most probably the beginning of the problem of the 3000+ and the self-aggrandized “all knowing preachers” spewing who knows what from the pulpit. The good news is he put light on the real problem that the early church was corrupt, ignorant and most probably consisted of megalomaniacs! You must know that the early church was not only a church, it was the school and the government, a taxing authority. If they control what you know along with your spiritual knowledge and kill anyone with a dissenting view as a heretic, they are pretty much in control of the world, or their part of it.
Finding a church is not easy. It must be scriptural based. If they teach anything that is not in the bible they are in error. If they add things like “you shall not drink,” they are in error. “You must not dance or wear jewelry,” they are perverting the bible, and you should find another church. Man cannot saddle their preferences on you as sin, or blasphemy, or what have you, if it is not in the bible, it aint so! They in fact will be forced to pay a special price for perverting the text, according to scripture.
As long as they preach from the bible, and nothing else; they are good to go. Everything that they teach must come from the bible, if it is not, you are wasting your time and worse, you are being lied to.
There is money to be had from faith. Sadly there are preachers out there that will tell you only what you want to hear and not what you need to hear. If I only tell you good things that make you feel good, you will come back every time the church is open because you feel good when you leave. Conversely, if you are uncomfortable in the pew, you will either not be a regular attender, or you might look for one of these “feel good” churches.
So those churches that are multi-million dollar churches, what do you think that they preach?
The smaller churches that are struggling, why is that?
As a side note: a church is not a building but, the “saints that are in it.”
If you struggle like so many of us to understand the bible and who you are you were most likely called. If you think that you are a good person and don’t need to wake up early on Sunday to go into a building full of hypocrites’, the chances are good that you have not been called yet, or you are denying the call.
The absolute bottom line is to do your own research. Question everything. Don’t take my word or anyone else’s word for it, do your own research! You must know what you believe and why you believe it! If you start the process, sooner or later it will all become clear to you.
To those that disagree with something here, By all means comment. I will happily discuss anything on any of my blogs but keep in mind, if you are terse, I will most likely not give you the time of day. Respectful discussion is always welcome.
-Best to you and those that you care about!
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